I always believe that God has a plan for everyone.

For me, God has given me the opportunity to know so many GREAT friends, including those in my class currently, my team mates, those in my secondary school and many other friends. The support you guys has given me is really important to me. I've also been given a chance to know aaron and nicholas through nationals. they are really cute boys! Wells, i'll try not to let this 'chance' just slipped away. LOl! and i knew that yb and cheryl are there for me still, just that it's spiritually and not physically. i seriously cant bear to let you guys just drift away.((:

mix feelings.

talk about happy things first. i'm really glad that munling got things sort out and i seriously hope that she will be a happy girl after today. she's my best friend and i love her so much that i dun wish to see her getting hurt again. misery eventually has to come to an end.

well, there're some things in life that are hard to let go (i have to admit and agree to this) but nevertheless, we have to learn to do so. but it's always easier to be said than done.

actually, the unhappy things that are revolving aound me recently and made me suffocate are partly because of this. i find myself unable to let go of some things in life- the trainings i used to have where i get to chat with my MJC friends, the counter staff, and some other friends from other schools; cheryl and yb who are the few that are closest to me in AJ shooting club are also busy with their own studies and i rarely get to chat with them as they didnt do well in mid-years and are catching up; and now, i'm going to face the same problem in my voluntary work where everyone's going to leave because prelims is drawing near and people cannot commit their time to it anymore. i feel like i've lost almost everything that is worthwhile to me. i can remember all these chatting sessions, the way i disturb the others while they were training at SAFRA and all the laughters i had. yet, all these are gone.. forever.. when i return to SAFRA, trying to search for these moment, i cant. the atmosphere is so different now. i could hardly recognised. i tried telling some of my good friends about it, pouring out everything, hoping that i'll feel less miserable, but it doesn't seem to work. because of this, i'd cried a few days ago. what steven said is right--it is because of an accumulation of unhappy things that happened which made me so sad.. and this words trigger my tears. RAH!

stress is also accumulating. i felt really stress whenever people around me (especially yonghui) kept on reminding on the number of weeks left to prelims. revision has already started yet i'm still stuck at unfinished homework.

my appetite is really bad recently. i feel hungry, but i don't wish to eat and my mum has been scolding me for it. i know she's just worry but i seriously got no appetite.

i got an urge to tell jasmine about all these. just pour out everything at her, cry and let her console me. although she's younger than me, but i find her the best candidate to listen to my problem. i guess it is because of her always being there for me and giving me valuable advice through trainings and competitions. but, i'm also quite relunctant to tell her about all these as i do not want to trouble her.

at this moment, i'm crying again.. i feel more than miserable. i think words cannot describe how bad i felt and i guess noone can ever understand the pain within me.

agony..

these photos were taken during our Bus-Mrt-Walk thingy. just received the photos from steven so now then upload them.

KIASU singaporeans! must be well-prepared so everyone just bring along all their relevant resources at home. don't care whether we really need it in the end not. HOOoooo!! we're going to win!

stop playing lah! can we take the photo properly?! LOL.

this photo is so much more sweet than the previous two (without the presence of yb and steven). wahhaha..

this map was given by gwen. she's so kind- our opponents yet gave us more resources. lol. this shows my popularity. haha.. ego.

dunno whose toolpig hand and bottle, trying to block the beautiful-cum-act-cute twins.

took my photo secretly?! i'll be shy..

we got 11th! wth. lost by a little to CASH! haha. but whatever, it's of so much FUN!

byebye.. going to makan and then go home.

steven, don't die!!

i thought i'd long forgotten this word, this feeling, yet it returns..)):

HURT!!

i'm having a sore eye now! it's terribly irritating and it hurts. but no matter what, i cannot afford to miss school so i'm trying my luck tml. my siblings got sore eyes two days ago, went to see a doctor and got MC. it's so luckily for me to tio! rah!

tml got team lunch. so excited! i cant wait..

nationals ended yesterday. rifle girls got 2nd, TPJC got first. so sad, lost to them by just 2 points and yet they're all along at the bottom those kind. noone ever expect they're win, but to be optismistic- we won RJC, and many other JCs. the bonds that we've tied and the friends we've made are the most valuable take-away for me. the friday night big gathering dinner, the fun and craziness we had are the most vivid memories. there're too much to say and words alone could not describe my feelings. i knew that there're so much i'm going to miss and this addiction needs time to recover. air rifle has already became a part of my life and i believe that it's not going to end here.

lastly, to all those i've known at SAFRA, all the best in your future and may we meet again. i love all of you people! thanks so much for giving me so much wonderful memories. all of you will not be forgotten and will always be cherished. this photo was taken during our prize presentation. we're l0oking down because there're actually many cameras there, but i dunno y jasmine was looking at my camera. haha.

cheryl and me. so many people said that we look like sister, do we? then, we'll always fake that we're twins. lols. then people at the range actually believe (like uncle tan). so funny!

this is nicholas! the one who i've told almost the whole world (my class and the entire shooting team) that he's SO CUTE! lols. i dun dare to sms
him even though i got his no. heard from aaron that their seniors keep on talking about me getting his no. so paiseh!

aaron and me. i insisted on him taking photo with me, but he kept on siam-ing cuz he said that he doesn't look good in photo. but who says?! he's like a little shuai boy boy. but i can never praise him that.

our group photo! i think this photo is super and nice to the extreme! there're our seniors and juniors.

i and shi ing from NYGS. she's cute, isn't it? she everytime join in our friday dinner, together with MJC people as well. she kept on asking me to go safra to train often, but i dun think i'll have the time to. i think i'll just try my best to go cuz i really miss the people there. furthermore, air rifle has already became a part of my life.

my eyecandy's locker. hoho~~

cheryl and me at the valley lockers. dunno what pose is this. we're just listening to the photographer (yb) who suggested this pose.

these are our lockers. they're super packed inside. especially that one at the bottom- there're 5 sets of air rifle suites, so can you imagine how tired it is to take out and keep thing? but i'm used to and pro at it alr. lousy school. no money to buy lockers. haha.

me and cheryl. actually there're a lot of people in the range at that time when we took the photo, but i dunno how yb manage to capture the image as if there's noone else in the range. anw, this is where we usually train and is our competition ground.

SAFRA indoor air weapons range!

me and junjie. peitsung and yb kept on saying that they've lost their respect for him cuz because he cheezed (i asked him to). haha..

i and my eyecandy (keith). omg! it's damn paiseh when danial, yb and junjie went over to approach him and ask him to take a photo with me! lols. but at least, there's no regret. i think yesterday is the last day i'll be seeing him. so sad~ p.s. cheryl, dun be sad. maybe your eyecandy will approach you one day and ask you to take photo with him. lols.

i'm too tired to blog today. cried so much just now that i'm so exhausted right now. we lost to tpjc by just 2 points and got second. i shall do all these blogging stuff tomorrow when i return home from dental appointment. good night!