Thursday, August 31, 2006

first of all, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!

what an unproductive day la! went back to phs n saw some teachers but guess wad? the skool hafta be closed by 1045. the security guard was like chasing us out of the skool. blow wistle somemore. i n phyllis were there shouting "half-time..". lols.

after that went to j8 wif caryn n of cuz phyllis. waiting super duper longg for mun, yee, wl, dora, jocelyn, joanna, and gary peh. i hate to wait for ppl. i simply dislike to wait! then we spent hours staying at j8. i dunno what exactly i have done there other than to walk and wait. feel like saying what dora said the previous time when we have an unsuccessful class gathering. "those who organise this class gathering should GO AND DIE!!" luckily dora was there to accompany me to be unhappy over the disorganisation. wahahaha.

i know i miss you all along. but who can i tell? who can i share all these with? i hafta admit that i do regret a little. regret not because i didn't cherish you, but because i let you go. actually i'm very confused. reali veri confused. because even if you ever come back, i know i will never hold on to you again. sound ironical, ain't it? don't wish to let you go yet even if you come back i will never hold on again..sigh~

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

I felt so lost.
I felt so empty inside.
Mummy, Mummy, i wanna HUGG you.)):
today did aces day work out again. only then then realised that we're going to do that for teachers' day. but nvm. so fun la!

the surprising thing is that our group can win for the gp dedate. quite amazing! because our point is not reali veri easy to search for materials and support our arguement. but we WON! yay! i n raktim were there cheering. so funny. he made me so highh. lols.

the best news of today is that there is no econs extra lesson. omg. everyone is there cheering la.

after that went back class to do hw. i'm so unproductive. did so little questions only. all thanks to the toolpig wm and rq. they were there keep on making i and allena laughing awayy..

agnes is sick again. girl, must take care wor..((:

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Thursday, August 24, 2006

yesterday i'm so HAPPY! i'm actually very worried that i will not be able to wear the rifle trouser because the previous week it got tighter la. then my coach and teacher were there saying cannot grow anymore fatter already. if not the jacket allocated to me cannot be worn. so the past week i'd been trying to eat lesser. it's a torture you know? for someone who LOVES FOOD so much. owells my suffering did pay off in the end. yest i could even stick the pants tighter because it seemed slightly loose.

after training when taking off my shoes, i realised there's this BIG BLISTER on my leg. so painful la! but the blister seemed cute leh. i dun dare to burst it so i'm like playing with it today. can feel that there's water inside the blister. so CUTE!

since i could wear the pants and it's slightly loose. i guess i can eat moree. so i ended up eating sushi, durians, coffee bun, and chicken wing! omg! they are all my favourite food. wad a wonderful dinner. paradise~

today there's no pe. actually thought could go home earlier i'm so happy but because i dun understand graphing techniques, i ended up going home at a later time. but i must reali reali thank yhui for teaching mee. cuz it's like wasting his time. somemore he hafta put up with my nonsense and had so much patience to keep on explaining to a keep-on-saying-don't-know person.

when i reached home my mum told me a sad news. my grandma going to move house soon. from the house two blocks away from mine to west coast. think next time will have lesser chance of seeing her already. i reali veri sad. reali reali veri sad. i will miss her..

i'm reali veri tired recently. yesterday slept at 9 plus. now i'm yawningg awayy. goingg to sleepp already. nitess. rmb sean's saying "don't let bed bugs push you down the bed". lols. hope this joker is still in my class now. but nvmm la. now got lincoln. lols.

are we drifting apart? i hope we can be like in the past..

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

today got the aces day work out during pe. OMG! it's so FUN la! haha. i'm like so highh. i dunno y also. i think the actions veri funnyy. den keep on laughingg and laughingg away. agnes and allena also cannot stand me. haha. especially when i see mx do the work out (the guys are opposite, facing us). even more funnyy la!

break tt time when i returning back to class, allena and jar were there spraying each other with the deodorant. then got the wind so the liquid substance went into my eyes. so painful la! cannot open my eyes at that instance. luckilyy glenn beside me. he helped me to the wall. later i slowly open my left eye tt is still fine and got into the toilet to wash my eyes. jar is so guilty la! should make him feel guilty lo. so old le still pei allena crazyy. hahas. now jar owe me an eye! next time his gf marry him hafta buy his eye from mi. lols.

after the toolpig extra lesson while we were returning back to class, allena tapped my shoulder so hardly la. then i proclaimed it's break and allena owe me her left shoulder.

agnes went for skin checkup and she missed the fun in class la! hope she's here as well to laughh with us. charles, rq, yhan, yhui, kenneth, wm, and glenn were in class as well. yhui and glenn are so KIND. teach i and allena physics. the toolpig rq, kenneth and wm were there playing "frisbee" and "tennis ball cum soccer". they are like small kids lo. play play play. while i teaching allena physics later. suddenly there's this tennis ball proof! slide across my cheek la! not reali veri painful but wm veri apologetic. and like that i got another free right cheek. next time wm's gf hafta buy his cheek from me ah. if not cannot kiss on his cheek. then wm say kiss on the lips then. eeeee.. lols.

received so many body parts today. wahahahahah..((:
"body parts for sale!!"

are we drifting apart? i beginning to not understand you..
recently read dora's blog. she's saying in her entry tt she started not knowing wad's blogging because there's nth to blog about. everyday is about the same. tt time when i read tt i did agree with her. but now i don't. received several surprises today.

in the morning received a bottle of star candy with a card attached to it from agnes. written "dearest girlfriend, do believe and strive for your dreams. i'll be here for you now and always." so sweet of her to prepare such a thing for us. you may say it's onli candies and card wad. no biggy. but it's just the thought that touched me.

during our break agnes helped me return my plates and i suggested to help her throw away her cup. she said "thanks". i dunno y but this "thanks" seemed to bring so much warmth. i didnt tell her about it, maybe because i dunno how to put this feeling into words.

after skool we went for photo taking session. we hafta go for photo-taking session AGAIN just because the photographic society lost our class photo. but it's gone by accident so i guess there's noone to blame. reali trouble minjun. take up so much of her time after school as our class is so indecisive on wad post should we give. anw, thankss girl.
i cannot deny the fact tt our class is indecisive la! everytime takes veri long to decide on stuff. but when a suggestion is given, everyone will just do. veryy ON! lols.

later near the evening i went jogging with agnes and allena in the track and we left all our belongings in class. who knows that the class hafta to be locked up so early today. okayy, this is not the point. the point is glenn helped me fold my skirt. omg. i'm so touched la! considering he's from boys' school and only have brothers and no sisters. hmm.. like wad agnes says, glenn is just nice.

life isn't that meaningless after all. just tt do we cherish these small things that happen everyday.

do believe and strive for your dreams.

Monday, August 21, 2006

this weekend is so meaningless. nth much to blog about also. now is 3 and yet i'm still awake. all thanks to the toolpig EoM. tml got photo-taking session. sure look veri ugly with the dark rings around my eyes. i'm hungry right now! but it's like so late already.

my sentence like no link to each other. rah!

v there's GI in the sentence below leh. adapted from glenn's brother's msn nick and modified. the consequence of doing too much of pw. zZz..

the worst way to miss someone is when the person is next to you and yet you do not have the courage to even look.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

i finally understand happiness and sadness is only a line difference only.

i'm so HAPPY in the first hour of school la! reali reali veri happy. if you ever know wad happen, you can feel my happiness as well. i haf been smiling throughout my chinese lesson. haha. so funny. anw. thanks jar, for helping me. even though you keep on suaning me (so indirectly..), it's okay. at that moment wo zhi dao wo shi xing fu de.

allena is so gayy with me. so kuku.

owells. i hafta say that this happiness is short. it only last up till physics lab lesson. i saw the bottle* there. left behind on the bench. perhaps you just misplaced it. but i'm sad seeing it. reali. later when having maths lesson, i realise i cannot cope with graphing techniques. maths is my best subj. yet it seemed to drift away from me. what's going on? i felt so stressed. so lost.

it makes me feel like crying...)):

jar allow me vent my all saddness on him- to suan him. i reali feel better after tt. reali. i dunno why.
later in the toilet, i hugged allena. that makes me feel even better.

whenever i'm sad, i just need a hugg. whenever i'm stressed, i just need to cry it out. i just need a friend to be there for me and everything will go right again.

thanks jar, allena and lincoln.
my dampen and heavy heart that is soaked with tears seemed to lighten...((:

`agnes, rmb to take good care of yourself alright?


will the distance ever get nearer..?

Tuesday, August 15, 2006







today received my graduation cd from allena (she helped me take it from phs) and i just viewed it.

i miss the life in phs. i miss the food in phs. i miss the clean toilets we have (especially the one near the lirbary). i miss the teachers. mr brett whiteway's mickey mouse mistakes and self-proclaimed master. mr tan bak seng's 'okay' and 'alright'. mr tan chee wee's jack jack hair. the fear of miss tang's maths lesson. miss anne kang's "sleeping pill" lesson. miss seh's sweaty palms. mr sim han guan's clapping hands* pe. mrs teo's motherly love teaching for us. mr chandra's dissection of toad's lesson.

i miss 4 devotion. i miss the classroom. the "aspire to greater heights" written at the top of the wall. the laughters we shared. the jokes we cracked. the good times, the bad times we have gone through together. the care we have for one another. the unity we have. of cuz, not forgetting..
every devotioneers.

i cried when i watched tt cd. i'm just simply sad to part. i just wish to tell all devotioneers..

thanks for all the wonderful and beautiful memories you guys haf created for me. it has already become part of me, part of my life. those times will never be forgotten and not fade away from my memory. i cherish those times alot. reali alot. i noe i will never be alone because there's all these memories to hold onto. even now we are in different skool. i noe clearly that all our hearts are together as one. i love you guys!((:

Sunday, August 13, 2006

friday went out with pilly, mun, yee, hk and th. had a great time in town! hk and th are so loving lo. so envious. sincerely give my blessings to them. hahas.

sat went to skool in the morning for tutorial den went to jj's house after lunch with gary, lincoln and glenn. when i reached home i took an afternoon nap and guess wad? i slept for 5 hours plus plus plus! OMG! i have been sleeping alot recently.

today actually i'm veri stressed because realise that i don't even have any sources for my EoM. then next mon hafta hand in the first draft already. still got so much hw to do. so.. in order to release stress, i went for roller skating at the area near my void deck in the evening. i fell twice on my butt. so painful! ouch! but it's alright. i enjoyed myself anw. hmm. it had been a long time since i last skate.

tml is monday again..

so near yet so far.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

today went for CCA leadership course. super tiring la! but also very funny. thanks to the coach and the toolpig lincoln sitting beside mi. first joke in the moning.

siao lao shi: how come noone sits in the front row?
lincoln: now is the 7th month.

lol. such joke onli lincoln can think of it la! haha. thinking of it makes mi laugh.((:

now still hafta do pw. tml hafta hand in first draft le. later still hafta do econs. dun think i can finish econs by today. i'm like going to doze off anytime like that.

tml is fri! den weekends again. wondering what are you doing?

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

national day

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!

went woodlands mac do pw with gary daddy and glenn. then rush home to watch parade. after that my kor called me and we have a short chat to catch up with each other's life. actually nothing much happen today. i just kinda..

miss you.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

national day celebration








having national day celebration today. at first i'm very happy. super happy la! even allena and agnes also feel so. but y it ended so sadly?

in the morning got my face and arms painted. den after skool went back to phs with allena. actually wanna take our graduation cd de but cannot find the teacher. right until i left skool i rmb my mood is still very good. i saw my juniors, friends and teachers and took lots of photos.



after tt, i carried my "make up" to town. went to lucky plaza de pizza hut to eat with agnes, allena, jar and mx. today's outing is so down down. how come? i know it's not tt i'm over-sensitive because allena feel so too. y?

i feel so fortunate to hold on to you. do you know?
but i understand clearly that some things are just simply impossible.
just wish to see you smile and i'm happy.
really.
no matter what i will always be there, as a friend, for you.
you will never be alone.

Monday, August 07, 2006

today actually i quite upset cuz i think i made my friends unhappy. even if they are not i felt guilty. wellwell. forgive mi and continue to treat mi as your good friend okay? got problem still MUST share with mi leh. i promise.. i will never tell others. sorry le la.

anw. i'm flooded with lincoln's jokes again. think marlene also cannot stand him la. throughout the kfc dinner, we keep on laughing laughing and laughing. haha. oh ya! KFC! i miss kfc. lol. omg omg. it's so yummy!

please don't be so cold towards meeeeeeeee

Sunday, August 06, 2006


today went out with mun to cafe to study but end up talking and eating cakes. think i'm going to grow fatter soon. hmm. well. think actually it's already an ongoing process. lol.

later at night i went out to lend jj cam. my sis also say jiaru is cute! think my whole family going to plot to steal her home le. wahaha.

felt upset and guilty. cuz the photos taken not nice. then i'm those ppl who go for perfection de wad. so will feel sad when the photos aint clear. should haf gone to take those pictures in the afternoon. cuz jj cannot hand in the work on time. then think his mother also angry tt jj not at home. aiyo. sian. zzz.

tml is mon again. lecture day. i dun wan lectures. i wan tutorials.

so near yet so far far far..
wah. so tired right now.

today haf been doing pw. kinda tough. but so long can finish on time think it's worthwhile de. but EoM how? dun even haf a single info on it yet. owells. think i shall solve tt after WR bah. haha. in the afternoon while we r deciding on where to go to do pw. i suggested come to my house while i'm talking to kenneth. he wanted to meet at 1215 and even requested to meet at 12 noon. in the end concluded to meet at 1215 and guess wad? kenneth arrived the lastest la. make everyone wait. late by 10 mins somemore hafta go off early. but nvm la. since it's for church thing.

after tt actually wanna play vball de. haf the urge to play. but realised got superband finals. dun wish to miss it wad so end up going to jj's house to watch with lincoln. jj's sis is like so cute la! feel like stealing her home to keep. lol. but kinda like trouble his mum for cooking food for us. have so much joke and fun with lincoln and jj around.

recently will be quite lonely. cuz my msg exploded again. cannot msg until 12 aug comes. hafta wait...


well well. i love weekends. reali enjoyed myself today. it's been sometime to feel so free! i wanna live everyday like today. but reality won't allow this. should be contented.((:


i'm happy so long you smile.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

yesterday seem to be a veri sad and happy day for mi. 3 unhappy incidents happen to mi on the same day la. dunno offended who. y so unlucky.

early in the morning bluff by jar tt he broke up with his gf. i reali veri sad for him. reali reali. in the end he told mi he onli said tt to prevent a quarrel in the morning. he tot i'm unhappy. so HE BLUFF ME!! cheated my feelings. sad for him for nth. but nvm. i forgive him since i also feel happy for him tt actually nth happens. lol. think mx is the most poor thing one. last person to noe tt he's being bluff by jar. his reaction super funny la. so slow. lol.

when going home tt time jj accidentally slap mi in the bus. so angry with him. actually i'm also not reali angry. just hafta act angry la cuz it's painful wad. how can forgive him so easily. in the end he called mi to apologise but i made him angry. today realised tt actually he scared i'm angry n i'm scared he's angry. so kuku la. funny.

hmm. oh ya. last thing. i received a msg from kenneth. saying tt he's not going to talk to mi anymore, goodbye. so shocked n upset. in the end, i realise tt actually it's nth. tt is onli a forward msg. i just didnt scroll down to see the rest to the msg. how toolpig la. the moment i noe it i laugh till my parents in the living room also can hear mi. i cant believe i'm so toolpig. but luckily. it's nth.

so after all, it's not reali a bad day. i just think too much le. lol. wad a kuku day. haha.((:

weekends here again. can finally gasp for some air.

oh ya. reali hafta thank jia jun for helping mi with my blog if not dunno where all these stuff will go to since i cannot post them here. also, must thanks lincoln for all the jokes. keep on making laugh and laugh non-stop. like today. so much jokes la. lol.

so near yet so far.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

OMG..

omg! i cant believe it. i'm sleeping more and more. last night slept so early. this morning still overslept. perhaps i think onli in dream will everything be perfect and not as cruel as living in the reality.

owells. skool is getting more and more sian. i find myself unable to catch up with the lectures. but i'm just simply too lazy to catch up le. perhaps everyone is tired le bah. i love chinese lesson. siow lao shi is so nice la. in her class read gp stuff she onli hit my head lightly. so sweet! enjoy her lesson man. then every morning she will be there to catch late comers. scare she see mi den every time hafta hide hide hide. lol.

luckily there's still some motivation in skool. if not i don't think i will be able to drag myself off the bed every morning and get to skool on time.

haha. tml got air rifle training. yay! so happy. can shoot shoot shoot. lol.