MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i just woke up. yest night yz's grandpa not feeling well again so he hafta go home and ask me to replace him for the movie ticket he had booked. i noe he's really upset. i could hear it from his tone when i called him. i understand how he's feeling cuz i experienced the same thing 5 years ago. i'm so worried for him that i cried before i went out of my house. hai. i dislike the feeling of parting. i hate it! y sometimes God must take away our beloved? y must him let people meet when in the end he need to made them part? anw, i'm just wondering, one day when i die, who will cry for me? do i worth the tears of anyone?

after movie we went to kbox to sing. i think there's nth much for me to blog bout it though it lasted for 6 hours. i just felt quite bad now. arghhhh.. maybe i'm very pissed at the moment so i just said how i felt. i knew that sandra and zara aint happy as well but what can we do? now i've cooled down and came to think bout it. just now what i'd said may be mean. i guessed shawn and weijie overheard what sandra and i were talking bout tt's y he's like buay song me. actually supposed to be a joyous season, i noe it would be if yz was there, but it seemed to end up like last year. SIGH~

i felt sad not because of the situation that occurred in kbox but you're not there when i'm down, when i need you most. i noe i'll feel much much better if you could listen to me pouring out all my unhappiness. but what can i do? you're simply too far away when i need you. and what can you do if i've told you everything? i think it's nth. brothers are still more impt. anw, i really really appreciate what vincent and qifu had done. perhaps they're those friends who really care for me. with them around, i felt so protected and safe.

owells. merry christmas.