tml (or strictly speaking, i should say later) is the start of abcamp.i am looking forward to it, yet i'm worried. basically, i'm just lacking in self-confidence. i'm afraid that i'll not be a good instructor, worried that this might happen, that might happen, perhaps i'm thinking too much into it. but, owells, i'll try to perform to my very best. i promise.

homework is stacking up; and abcamp has been used as an excuse for myself to not do my homework. actually i'm deceiving myself. really hope that i can buck up after this camp.

i'm feeling the pressure now. abcamp is later and after a week, there're intensively training for the up-coming NUS invitational shoot and make-up lectures and tutorials. after which, i only left with 2 weeks to study for my mid-years, which includes so many topics for each subject. yet during this 2 weeks, i still hafta go for more and moree intensively training for nationals, which is one week after my mid-years. time is really lacking for me; and stress is building up.

i know that i need to do well for mid-years yet, at the same time, i need to shoot well for nationals. i'm depending on my mid-year to get my scholarship since the results are taken into consideration during the application for it. also, with the aid of my two nationals juniors and coach's aim of championship for female rifle team this year, i have to really train hard and shoot well for nationals so that i do not pull down the overall score. i dunno how far i can be stretched, but i'll try my best not to break down and BE STRONG!

i saw my eyecandy on last fri during my training. so happy! lols. still feeling damn excited even until now.((:
owells, there's something wrong with my blogger. dunno happen but it keep on appearing invalid password. so sad.

monday when i went for training guess who i saw? i saw mi lu bing tt sam leh! so happy. actually wanna get his signature budden realised i don't have any paper and pen (left everything at home) so hafta give up on this thought. but i'm still feeling very happy! i looked at hiom and he looked at me. hohoho~ he must be thinking who's this weird girl to keep on staring at me.

yest saw phyllis on bus and i think i'll be seeing her today again. vball boys are playing against NYJC. hopefully i'll be able to find her there at toa payoh stadium.

actually there's econs common test later but thanks to vball finals, the econs test is postponed! yay! lucky. i got plenty of work to do recently, especially all proposal stuff cuz another week or so, we hafta carry out all these ideas in ABCamp.

recently our shooting team just got ourselves adidas team bags. cool isn't it? and we've also ordered team jersey. yeah man! can carry the team bag on wed. haha. budden the jersey needs to take about a month to be ready. anw, mon got physics SPA skill A. sian. tml need t o mug for it alr. these few days really quite busy with all my proposal thing for the ABCamp. sigh.. the work load don't spread evenly. sometime no hw, no proposal then very free; sometime suddenly all the work load comes then cannot cope. zzz.. owells, i'll still try my very best.

mothers' day is just around the corner. rmb to get your mom something and tell her that you love her!((:

later got training again. so zzz. this week only got one training then sunday is monthly shoot again. i can predict that i cannot shoot well this time round cuz recently my shots didnt reach the peak of the sine curve, ie. dy/dx=O

today is harmoc syf. they got silver lehh. so good! but sad this tt my competition is in term 3. when everyone finishes their com and syf and is starting to prepare for 'A' level, i'm still having my intensive training.

saturday something amusing happened. my dad bought dinner from mac. then my mum so greedy, quickly went to grab a fries to eat, then she realised that she accidentally ate a STRAW! LOL! she still came telling me tt she's wondering how come the fries is so long then noticed that it's actually a straw. lol! my mum is so funny.

just started on my e-learning stuff. this e-learning is super lousy la! i must feedback this! the pace is damn slow and the toolpig thing keep on hanging! rah! still expect us to complete all the assessment within two days. zzz...

somemore tml still got chemistry spa. need to mug for it. i'm feeling so lazy..

so hungry right now. wondering why my mum haven't come home with my breakfast yet. i feel like sleeping again. *yawn*

yes! i finally finish clearing all my unread email (253 of them) ! three cheers to me! HURRAY! lols.

later by default have to go band concert.zzz... i feel like slacking around at home. dun wish to go out at all but no choice, since i'd already pay for the ticket. tml is monday again?!? ohh noo~ y weekends always seemed to be so short for me. sob.)): can i have self-proclaimed hols tml? `please..

Jealousy makes one ugly.

i felt so disgusted yet helpless...


)):

today we'd I&E day. two things good about it are that there're no lessons and there'e free file! haha. anw, here are some photos taken today:






ten-dalism. saw the BIG aeroplane at the centre of the majong paper? it's drawn by me and ruin by yhan! hoho~
ten-o-six class photos at pe department.

the fun part bout the game carried out at the pe department is when we played self-editing baseball. the home team ran with the ball to prevent the opponents from taken it while the opposing team steal our bases.. lols. so much fun!

got caught yesterday for playing bridge in class. felt that i've let down my parents and gary dad. owells, i guessed everything should turn out fine after today. i promise i will never play bridge in class again. must learn from mistakes. really hope i can do it. i must resist from the temptation cuz i'm seriously addicted to it.

it's so amazing that just a message itself can make one feel blessed..((:

happiness.

yesterday in the morning i couldn't wake up on time to go for ABcamp stuff in school. 8 o'clock starts and lincoln called me at 810am. lol! i'm so panicky! when i reached school, it's about 845am and i saw mr cheng sitting with my group. i'm like OMG, i'm dead, i'm dead. thank god he didnt scold me when i told him i overslept. wah heng ah! so scary. i also got to know what community and activity i'm selected for- welfare com and outdoor activities. dunno should be happy or upset. i wish to be GI, budden got in for welfare...

have to chiong to CDAC after that because ABcamp meeting always end late. so i ended up eating 3 buns for breakfast-cum-lunch. so poor thing. but i'm very elated when jason is so efficient and enthu in doing his work. i'd never do assessment paper so fast before! lol! happy happy. i know very well that jason is a very very smart boy, just that he loses focus easily and is very mischievous.

it's also my dad's birthday, so we went out to bottle tree garden (or something that named like that) for dinner. that's a rather good place to dine in except that it is sort of "rural". we're facing the sea when we're eating. cool right?


hoho~ daddy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
i love you.



but there's a very upsetting thing that happened to me last night. i guessed i'm going to lose my the other dad, lose a friend, pretty soon. i dunno what happened between us as well. i guess being friends is a suffer to both of us. how come ah?

hoho, yesterday is a super HAPPY day for me!

i felt damn damn happy, so fortunate, so blessed.

i'd completed both of my common tests-physics and chemistry, which landed on the same week and were near to my competition. very stressful. but well, it's OVER! yay!

then in the afternoon, we got back our chinese 'A' level result. i got a 'A'!! it's so unbelievable! not because my chinese ain't good, i got As all along in secondary school, but ever since i entered into JC, my chinese result has been a disappointment, i never got A before and my highest grade is only a low B. WAHAHHAHHA.. thanks man! the A appear at the most crucial paper. YAY YAY!! i ended up crying. cuz i'm too happy. really damn damn happy. tt's call tears of joy.

still got another slightly happy thing. i got third in a recent NTU shooting competition. actually i'm rather sad initially cuz i didn't shoot well this time as compared to my training, so i pulled down my team score. if i'd shot better, we wouldn't lose to NTU, who shoot just 3 points more than us. but think in a positive way.. i got a 3rd in my first competition! should celebrate. lol. MUST work harder man!

i must really thank my class, i received so much encouragement from them. really touched when i keep on received messages from them, cheering me on and asking me for the results. i must also thank all my other friends who are so concerned about me. thanks man! i know i'm not alone. there're friends out there who care for me! so blessed..((:

tml got NTU shooting competition! damn worried and scared man. yesterday i shot a 89. it's like dunno how long since i last shot a 80 plus and i did it again la! wth! super disappointed. i dunno wad am i doing. super worried that i'll pull down the overall score tml. AJ rifle girls MUST winnnnnnnn! cannot lose. cuz i wanna pon school on thurs since there's prize presentation, so i MUST win! wahahha. wad a nicee reason for aiming to win. stressed ah! rah!

PIKA! so cute right? i mean me.. wahahaha! jkjk. i'm referring to the pikachu. it's so cute! dunno y this pikachu will end up out the range in yihun safra. can't resist its cuteness so i and cheryl went to take photo with it. hoho~((:

today went to safra for monthly shoot. shot pretty good-378/400. but still havent reach my expectation yet. so i must continue to work harder. this coming wednesday got NTU competition. hopefully i can at least maintain my standard. owells, so happy! both physics and chemistry common test are postponed to friday! yay! can concentrate on my shooting first. hurray! haha. anw, i love CNY. can get ang bao, can eat, can slack, can gamble and there're so many shows to watch. so good...((:

tml is CNY! advance greeting. tonight i going over to my granny's house to shou shui. heard that like that parents will have a longer lives.

recently got pissed off very easily. what's wrong with me? sigh~

i'm feeling stressed. so many tests are queueing up, so much homework are stacking up, waiting for me to do them, yet competitions are so soon. i just felt so tired everyday.

yest shots were total piece of shit. wasted my 2 hours

this is 2/3 of ten-o-six. taken before the toolpig chinese lesson starts at LT5. yay yay!

`i love them all. ten-o-six rawks!!((:

wah! so long didnt blog again. shall do some blogging now.

today my whole family is going to stay over at my uncle's house. came to his house in the afternoon for house-warming. also because of this, i cannot attend CDAC. so sad la! actually it's the first day when the CDAC starts and all the kids were coming over. i really wish i could be there to carry out all those ice-breaking games that i'd been planning in the past few weeks. but well, since i'm unable to make it, i informed yvonne bout all the activities and i believed that everything will go on smoothly. most importantly, i hoped that all the kids will enjoy themselves, the games and activities. wm told me that jason didnt go today. dunno the reason why. hai. dunno wad happened to him leh. i quite worried.

anw, yesterday was X-country and i ran. cant believe i can run 3.2km non-stop. cool. i'm so proud of myself to actually complete everything. yay! lindy rawks! haha. i hope agnes was there to run with me so that we can pace one another. but she's sick. must take care dearest. after the run, we'd so much FUN la! our class was damn HIGH and craZY! we kept on cheering and shouting and even initiated in many puma cheer. lols. all sot sot one. but this also proves one thing--10/06 is super bonded. we love one another just like a biG family. i love them all as well! i love ten-o-six! we were like trying to lose our voices by shouting and screaming and cheering. we even competed to see who can go the highest frequency with the BOLEI cheer. so shiok! so FUN! our class was like living in our own world, just cheer as and when we like. heck care bout the others. haha. at the end of the day, we had this dance. 1o-oh-banjang bilibanjang HEY! damn cool, damn high, damn shuang. wahahhaha! i got so HIGH! yay yay!=D

yesterday i went for training again. average 9.2-worse than monday's result. zzz. shall train harder tml! coach zhang wanted us to join the monthly shoot, which is this sunday. really very scared cuz MJ and CJ are shooting as well. what if my result is on the bottom of the list? i'm really afraid.

anw, yesterday when i'm in the school rifle range, i got hit on my nose by the metal bar of the rifle. it's super painful la! went to the toilet to check and wash up and then went to the cafe to get some ice to rub my nose. it's still painful right now! ouch!)):

`n ss!w !