I always believe that God has a plan for everyone.

For me, God has given me the opportunity to know so many GREAT friends, including those in my class currently, my team mates, those in my secondary school and many other friends. The support you guys has given me is really important to me. I've also been given a chance to know aaron and nicholas through nationals. they are really cute boys! Wells, i'll try not to let this 'chance' just slipped away. LOl! and i knew that yb and cheryl are there for me still, just that it's spiritually and not physically. i seriously cant bear to let you guys just drift away.((:

mix feelings.

talk about happy things first. i'm really glad that munling got things sort out and i seriously hope that she will be a happy girl after today. she's my best friend and i love her so much that i dun wish to see her getting hurt again. misery eventually has to come to an end.

well, there're some things in life that are hard to let go (i have to admit and agree to this) but nevertheless, we have to learn to do so. but it's always easier to be said than done.

actually, the unhappy things that are revolving aound me recently and made me suffocate are partly because of this. i find myself unable to let go of some things in life- the trainings i used to have where i get to chat with my MJC friends, the counter staff, and some other friends from other schools; cheryl and yb who are the few that are closest to me in AJ shooting club are also busy with their own studies and i rarely get to chat with them as they didnt do well in mid-years and are catching up; and now, i'm going to face the same problem in my voluntary work where everyone's going to leave because prelims is drawing near and people cannot commit their time to it anymore. i feel like i've lost almost everything that is worthwhile to me. i can remember all these chatting sessions, the way i disturb the others while they were training at SAFRA and all the laughters i had. yet, all these are gone.. forever.. when i return to SAFRA, trying to search for these moment, i cant. the atmosphere is so different now. i could hardly recognised. i tried telling some of my good friends about it, pouring out everything, hoping that i'll feel less miserable, but it doesn't seem to work. because of this, i'd cried a few days ago. what steven said is right--it is because of an accumulation of unhappy things that happened which made me so sad.. and this words trigger my tears. RAH!

stress is also accumulating. i felt really stress whenever people around me (especially yonghui) kept on reminding on the number of weeks left to prelims. revision has already started yet i'm still stuck at unfinished homework.

my appetite is really bad recently. i feel hungry, but i don't wish to eat and my mum has been scolding me for it. i know she's just worry but i seriously got no appetite.

i got an urge to tell jasmine about all these. just pour out everything at her, cry and let her console me. although she's younger than me, but i find her the best candidate to listen to my problem. i guess it is because of her always being there for me and giving me valuable advice through trainings and competitions. but, i'm also quite relunctant to tell her about all these as i do not want to trouble her.

at this moment, i'm crying again.. i feel more than miserable. i think words cannot describe how bad i felt and i guess noone can ever understand the pain within me.

agony..

these photos were taken during our Bus-Mrt-Walk thingy. just received the photos from steven so now then upload them.

KIASU singaporeans! must be well-prepared so everyone just bring along all their relevant resources at home. don't care whether we really need it in the end not. HOOoooo!! we're going to win!

stop playing lah! can we take the photo properly?! LOL.

this photo is so much more sweet than the previous two (without the presence of yb and steven). wahhaha..

this map was given by gwen. she's so kind- our opponents yet gave us more resources. lol. this shows my popularity. haha.. ego.

dunno whose toolpig hand and bottle, trying to block the beautiful-cum-act-cute twins.

took my photo secretly?! i'll be shy..

we got 11th! wth. lost by a little to CASH! haha. but whatever, it's of so much FUN!

byebye.. going to makan and then go home.

steven, don't die!!

i thought i'd long forgotten this word, this feeling, yet it returns..)):

HURT!!

i'm having a sore eye now! it's terribly irritating and it hurts. but no matter what, i cannot afford to miss school so i'm trying my luck tml. my siblings got sore eyes two days ago, went to see a doctor and got MC. it's so luckily for me to tio! rah!

tml got team lunch. so excited! i cant wait..

nationals ended yesterday. rifle girls got 2nd, TPJC got first. so sad, lost to them by just 2 points and yet they're all along at the bottom those kind. noone ever expect they're win, but to be optismistic- we won RJC, and many other JCs. the bonds that we've tied and the friends we've made are the most valuable take-away for me. the friday night big gathering dinner, the fun and craziness we had are the most vivid memories. there're too much to say and words alone could not describe my feelings. i knew that there're so much i'm going to miss and this addiction needs time to recover. air rifle has already became a part of my life and i believe that it's not going to end here.

lastly, to all those i've known at SAFRA, all the best in your future and may we meet again. i love all of you people! thanks so much for giving me so much wonderful memories. all of you will not be forgotten and will always be cherished. this photo was taken during our prize presentation. we're l0oking down because there're actually many cameras there, but i dunno y jasmine was looking at my camera. haha.

cheryl and me. so many people said that we look like sister, do we? then, we'll always fake that we're twins. lols. then people at the range actually believe (like uncle tan). so funny!

this is nicholas! the one who i've told almost the whole world (my class and the entire shooting team) that he's SO CUTE! lols. i dun dare to sms
him even though i got his no. heard from aaron that their seniors keep on talking about me getting his no. so paiseh!

aaron and me. i insisted on him taking photo with me, but he kept on siam-ing cuz he said that he doesn't look good in photo. but who says?! he's like a little shuai boy boy. but i can never praise him that.

our group photo! i think this photo is super and nice to the extreme! there're our seniors and juniors.

i and shi ing from NYGS. she's cute, isn't it? she everytime join in our friday dinner, together with MJC people as well. she kept on asking me to go safra to train often, but i dun think i'll have the time to. i think i'll just try my best to go cuz i really miss the people there. furthermore, air rifle has already became a part of my life.

my eyecandy's locker. hoho~~

cheryl and me at the valley lockers. dunno what pose is this. we're just listening to the photographer (yb) who suggested this pose.

these are our lockers. they're super packed inside. especially that one at the bottom- there're 5 sets of air rifle suites, so can you imagine how tired it is to take out and keep thing? but i'm used to and pro at it alr. lousy school. no money to buy lockers. haha.

me and cheryl. actually there're a lot of people in the range at that time when we took the photo, but i dunno how yb manage to capture the image as if there's noone else in the range. anw, this is where we usually train and is our competition ground.

SAFRA indoor air weapons range!

me and junjie. peitsung and yb kept on saying that they've lost their respect for him cuz because he cheezed (i asked him to). haha..

i and my eyecandy (keith). omg! it's damn paiseh when danial, yb and junjie went over to approach him and ask him to take a photo with me! lols. but at least, there's no regret. i think yesterday is the last day i'll be seeing him. so sad~ p.s. cheryl, dun be sad. maybe your eyecandy will approach you one day and ask you to take photo with him. lols.

i'm too tired to blog today. cried so much just now that i'm so exhausted right now. we lost to tpjc by just 2 points and got second. i shall do all these blogging stuff tomorrow when i return home from dental appointment. good night!

yesterday night heard on the news that soul's ishi committed sucide. very upset to receive such a news.he should have understand that he has a lot of fans who are consistently supporting him still. he's a great dancer! my idol! my mum knew that i like him a lot so when she knew this, she msg me immediately. i'm feeling really down. superband finals- soul's ishi. he's very cutee!

soul...

they're my favourite and my forever superband.

i'm going training in the afternoon later- dry fire. then going dinner with jocelyn and yvonne they all, followed by bowling competition organised my SHG. i don't even know how to bowl yet i'm the captain of the team. hoho~ interesting. i think i'm just going to use both of my hands to roll the ball.

i'm hereby to declare mid-year common test officially over! hurray! CT over-cum-my sister's birthday made today a really appropriate day to celebrate.

we had a blue-berry cake for my sis and i got her a choker- a red crystal starfish with a fake diamond on it. i think it's beautiful so i hope that she'll love it as well.

i had just returned from training at safra.i'm going to train intensively from today onwards since mid-year is over and my nationals is just NEXT WEEK! omg! it's really SOON. but well, i'm going to put in my best effort. what i'm worried most is after nationals, where there are lesser training which will eventually end someday, i.e. lesser time available for me to go for my passion, and lesser gathering with my clique in shooting team. i knew that i'll miss all the friday dinner session with steven, cheryl, yb, candy and sometimes with my MJ friends and si ing. i've expected this kinda 'parting' long time ago, but i'm still not prepared to face it, to experience it. anw, shooting has already became a part of me and i'm going to continue with this interest when i enter into university.

there's something strange that happened yesterday. halfway back home, along ave 2, the bus 852 suddenly turned into upper thomson road though it's supposed to go straight.i got the shock of my life! i can hear all those conversation and discussion among the passengers then.haha, damn scary but cool! at first i'm also blaming the uncle for wasting time (same as niger), but after that i realised that it's because there's an accident along that road. tt's y.

tml i'm going out with munling to bugis in the morning after her paper, followed by, training at safra. actually i'm supposed to go for my class gathering at glenn's house before training, but i miss munling and love her too much, so i decided to go out with her instead- to bugis to shop.

i'm really tired, physically and mentally, after 3 weeks of mugging to be prepared for my mid-year. the greatest disappointment is my math paper. i took a week to practise and it's supposed to be my best subject yet i left around half of my paper blank! demoralised.

owells, in order to be energetic tml, i shall go sleep now. goodbye..




your smile made my day.

happy fathers' day!

just came back from dinner. went to my house nearby that bottle plant restaurant there to eat cum celebration for fathers' day.

there's this waiter, who took orders for us, looks like wu zhun. i knew that allena will sure go crazy if i tell her that, so i told her and her reaction was just like what i expected it would be. lols. but he really not bad-looking.

didnt really study today, or should i say i haven study today yet. haha. i shall do some studying later. but since i'm watching tv now, i shall study when my show ended. tsk..

today went for air rifle selection. damn tired. overslept this morning and quickly rushed down to safra when i woke up. my shots suck! shot so many "8"s. i knew that i shot so badly that i didnt even bother asking my coach my score. sad.. if i'm going to continue to 'drop' like that, i'll not be able to make it for nationals. owells.

i'm in a dilemma this afternoon between choosing to stay at home to study or come over to my aunt's house together with my family. haha, i ended up at my aunt's house. lol! slacking. rah! i hate myself. owells.

fathers' day is just around the corner. i realised that not many people remember that, but almost everyone can remember the date for mothers' day. is dad really that insignificant as compared to mum? i know that, at least to me, both dad and mum are equally important and i love both of them. i know that both of them love me as well.^^

i hate it when my life is only revolving around with studying and trainings! zzz.. i want more freedom! i wanna play play play play play. wanna go arcade, watch movie and many moree. i just dreamt of going to arcade last night. dots.

i wanna get CHAMPIONSHIP for arw. 6th june is my nationals competition date. everyone must pray hard for me yea? i wanna get AJ first gold! we'll beat RJ... and upon saying all these, i feel like training again.

this coming thurs is my NUS invitation shoot! hoho~ tell you frankly that i'm not confident at all. cuz i only have 2 training after ABCamp, before NUS starts. 2 trainings ain't enough.

on friday, my grouping shots are good but not single shots. lack of confidence, hesitate and lose my focus are the main reasons for not shooting well in my single shots. owells, gotta work on that this tue. but the happy thing that happened on that day was that i know, through my junior, that actually there's this AB camper who thinks that i'm cute! wahahhahaha~~ **cant sleep** rofl. i thought that all campers will think that i'm fierce because of what my mohicans said, but luckily it's not totally true. heehee.

zzz.. tml hafta go school again.

just came back from abcamp!

everything seemed to passed so fast. rmb the torture and stress i've been feeling and facing before the camp because of all the proposal and re-doing of proposal over and over again. also, on the first and second day of camp, i'm still very bz with my outdoor stuff and chionging to set up wet weather stations when it started to rain at labrador. everything's so tiring and yet the amount of sleep we get is so little.

everyday running here and here and there, getting everything done on time. preparing food, serving food and having no time for my own breakfast, lunch and dinner. all these are so vivid in my mind. also remembering how welfare com stand together as one-- to be firm in what we've done ain't a mistake and that we're not wrong! i believe many of the campers do understand the rationale of us being to strict and firm in their attire, attitude and disipline.

the most fun part of the camp is during Land Ex where dad, alford and me were chasing our mohicans who were constantly running to the end point and hurrying us. they were saying that we're so slow and kept on shouting "GIs jiayou!" there're even a few times where dad hafta blow his whistle to slow them down. they offered their help to pull us along to the jetty when we've reach east coast park and all the GIs were half-dead. they took our motivational food and ran with them and did not feed us any food on the way. it's a torture! but fun indeed. i did enjoy it and i'm glad to see their team spirit! i believe all of them will become very good leader in their future. all i wanna say to them is "all the best campers!"

what i'm most touched with is the praising at the end of the camp and the care and concern i've received from all during the camp. the friendship we has bonded and the lesson we has learnt is what i achieved most from the camp. i'm very proud of all SIs, all campers and MYSELF! ((:

`ABCamp rawks!

tml (or strictly speaking, i should say later) is the start of abcamp.i am looking forward to it, yet i'm worried. basically, i'm just lacking in self-confidence. i'm afraid that i'll not be a good instructor, worried that this might happen, that might happen, perhaps i'm thinking too much into it. but, owells, i'll try to perform to my very best. i promise.

homework is stacking up; and abcamp has been used as an excuse for myself to not do my homework. actually i'm deceiving myself. really hope that i can buck up after this camp.

i'm feeling the pressure now. abcamp is later and after a week, there're intensively training for the up-coming NUS invitational shoot and make-up lectures and tutorials. after which, i only left with 2 weeks to study for my mid-years, which includes so many topics for each subject. yet during this 2 weeks, i still hafta go for more and moree intensively training for nationals, which is one week after my mid-years. time is really lacking for me; and stress is building up.

i know that i need to do well for mid-years yet, at the same time, i need to shoot well for nationals. i'm depending on my mid-year to get my scholarship since the results are taken into consideration during the application for it. also, with the aid of my two nationals juniors and coach's aim of championship for female rifle team this year, i have to really train hard and shoot well for nationals so that i do not pull down the overall score. i dunno how far i can be stretched, but i'll try my best not to break down and BE STRONG!

i saw my eyecandy on last fri during my training. so happy! lols. still feeling damn excited even until now.((:
owells, there's something wrong with my blogger. dunno happen but it keep on appearing invalid password. so sad.

monday when i went for training guess who i saw? i saw mi lu bing tt sam leh! so happy. actually wanna get his signature budden realised i don't have any paper and pen (left everything at home) so hafta give up on this thought. but i'm still feeling very happy! i looked at hiom and he looked at me. hohoho~ he must be thinking who's this weird girl to keep on staring at me.

yest saw phyllis on bus and i think i'll be seeing her today again. vball boys are playing against NYJC. hopefully i'll be able to find her there at toa payoh stadium.

actually there's econs common test later but thanks to vball finals, the econs test is postponed! yay! lucky. i got plenty of work to do recently, especially all proposal stuff cuz another week or so, we hafta carry out all these ideas in ABCamp.

recently our shooting team just got ourselves adidas team bags. cool isn't it? and we've also ordered team jersey. yeah man! can carry the team bag on wed. haha. budden the jersey needs to take about a month to be ready. anw, mon got physics SPA skill A. sian. tml need t o mug for it alr. these few days really quite busy with all my proposal thing for the ABCamp. sigh.. the work load don't spread evenly. sometime no hw, no proposal then very free; sometime suddenly all the work load comes then cannot cope. zzz.. owells, i'll still try my very best.

mothers' day is just around the corner. rmb to get your mom something and tell her that you love her!((:

later got training again. so zzz. this week only got one training then sunday is monthly shoot again. i can predict that i cannot shoot well this time round cuz recently my shots didnt reach the peak of the sine curve, ie. dy/dx=O

today is harmoc syf. they got silver lehh. so good! but sad this tt my competition is in term 3. when everyone finishes their com and syf and is starting to prepare for 'A' level, i'm still having my intensive training.

saturday something amusing happened. my dad bought dinner from mac. then my mum so greedy, quickly went to grab a fries to eat, then she realised that she accidentally ate a STRAW! LOL! she still came telling me tt she's wondering how come the fries is so long then noticed that it's actually a straw. lol! my mum is so funny.