are our friendship bond really that weak that we cannot afford to undergo any minor setback? it's really sad. really disappointing.

and there's always some hypocrite in this world. i really feel very uncomfortable with these kinda people around. they can make almost everyone likes them la. i dunno how they did it. i hafta admit defeated. even i hafta act as if i like them as well so tt i will not be an outcast, so that i don't oppose the others who like them. i'm suffocating. i wanna cry. i wanna beg these people to stripe off their masks and just go away.

sometimes i really admire agnes. she can be so direct. she can just heck care everything and speak out. i can't. or perhaps i'm afraid. i'm just a loser. shit! sigh`