yesterday morning when i woke up, the first msg i saw was yz's msg, telling me that his grandpa passed away already. so i went to his grandpa's funeral at night with kenneth, sandra and zara. his eyes were swollen. i knew that he cried before and he's really sad. hai. i felt rather helpless then. i hope i can do something so i tried to cheer him up. really wish that he can be stronger. well, i believe he will. hope he knows when he should sleep, when he should eat, don't fall sick at this moment.

in the afternoon, i quarrelled with kenneth. he scolded vulgarity at me somemore. hai. quite bad ah. after that, because of some small matters, my parents scolded me and they ended up quarrelling. dunno y everything turns out to be so bad suddenly so i cried. i knew i shouldn't disturb yz at that moment budden there're noone else that was in better position than him for me to talk to already so i called him and talked to him. we only chatted for a while cuz he still got alot of things to do and i shouldn't hold him back. i continued crying until i dozed off. by the time i woke up, it's already evening and it's too late to meet up mun to do hw. lucky she understands my situation. lols.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i just woke up. yest night yz's grandpa not feeling well again so he hafta go home and ask me to replace him for the movie ticket he had booked. i noe he's really upset. i could hear it from his tone when i called him. i understand how he's feeling cuz i experienced the same thing 5 years ago. i'm so worried for him that i cried before i went out of my house. hai. i dislike the feeling of parting. i hate it! y sometimes God must take away our beloved? y must him let people meet when in the end he need to made them part? anw, i'm just wondering, one day when i die, who will cry for me? do i worth the tears of anyone?

after movie we went to kbox to sing. i think there's nth much for me to blog bout it though it lasted for 6 hours. i just felt quite bad now. arghhhh.. maybe i'm very pissed at the moment so i just said how i felt. i knew that sandra and zara aint happy as well but what can we do? now i've cooled down and came to think bout it. just now what i'd said may be mean. i guessed shawn and weijie overheard what sandra and i were talking bout tt's y he's like buay song me. actually supposed to be a joyous season, i noe it would be if yz was there, but it seemed to end up like last year. SIGH~

i felt sad not because of the situation that occurred in kbox but you're not there when i'm down, when i need you most. i noe i'll feel much much better if you could listen to me pouring out all my unhappiness. but what can i do? you're simply too far away when i need you. and what can you do if i've told you everything? i think it's nth. brothers are still more impt. anw, i really really appreciate what vincent and qifu had done. perhaps they're those friends who really care for me. with them around, i felt so protected and safe.

owells. merry christmas.

today my ONLY achievement is to go to safra for air rifle training. guess what? i didnt do any hw! better dun tell mun this. she sure scold me!

anw, today only i and yb went for training. after training when we gonna keep the air rifle suit and shoes all that into the locker, i opened the wrong locker! lols. so funny la! somemore there's this group of mjc people coming in. den they're laughing at me as well. so ma lu! hahaha. i cant stop laughing then.

forget to blog bout this yest. joseph, my primary school friend, saw mun and i at mac. then he couldn't recognise me. the reason why he couldn't recognise me is bacause i'm much slimmer now! hahhahaa. so happy! he said I'M SLIMMER! SLIMMER! wahahhaa.. whoohoo~ but the toolpig mun kept on saying that he didnt see me for 5 years already, tt's why. rah! wet blanket. but nvm. i'm still very happy! lols.

tml night i'm working again. the day after tml i'm working from 7 am till night time. and on christmas eve, which is sun night, i'm going out. so i think i can hardly blog. dearest fans, i'll blog after tt alright? bear with it. hahas. too excited! tt's y.

today went out to do some hw with mun. i think i'm really hopeless. super slack. but wellwell. so long i think of rq, glenn, kr, etc. i felt so much more relieve because they're even more hopeless than me. lol.

toolpig mun. made me endure and endure when i wanted to go toilet urgently today. the funny thing is that she also wanna go toilet la! budden because she's so excited over buying facial wash stuff and wanted me to help her to choose those good ones, then she took the risk of having 2 bladders bursting. lol. in the end, we ran to the toilet! toolpig girl!

wah sian. now i'm having a flu. all thanks to the rain today AGAIN! hope by tml i'll be fine. gtg sleep. nitey. i MUST sleep real early for the next few days so that by sun all my pimples will be GONE! christmas eve lehh. i don't wanna have pimples! )):

Last Christmas((:

i love this song. so i'm going to dedicate it to all my friends, wishing all of you a very happy and joyous MERRY CHRISTMAS! hohoho~((:

Last Christmas

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away.
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special.

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special.

Once bitten and twice shy,
I keep my distance,
But you still catch my eye.
Tell me baby,
Do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year
It doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas)

I wrapped it up and sent it.
With a note saying "I love you" --
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been.
But if you kissed me now,
I know you'd fool me again.

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on
Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away.
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special.

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away.
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special.

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover buy you tore him apart
Maybe next year I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special.

owells. i think i better do some blogging. cannot be like my few friends who have a blog but rarely see any new entry. heehee.

on sat, i went to escape with mun, yee, hk, thao, pilly, jac, yy and wl to celebrate yee's and wl's birthday as well as hk's belated birthday. wah! so many small girls and boy among my ex-class. haha. it has been very very long since i last saw yee. got so much things to tell her bout. in the morning, i met yee earlier to go to sengkang to get Goong vcd from huilin. haha. i haven't finish watching yet. lols.we had been chatting all the way.

after that we went to escape as planned. jac joined us at a later time cuz she cannot make it in time. but i really miss her then cuz she only comes back to singapore during her hols in australia. we got to try almost all the rides! it's so fun! it's always fun to hang out with them. mun, yee and i went to play bumper boat and we're so wet! lols. especially yee. i and mun gang up to push her boat to one corner and we keep on shooting water onto her! wahhaha! birthday pressie, yea? OMG! i love to play go kart most! i love to speed. heehee. think next time i cannot drive. if not sure everytime got summon. lols.

in the evening, jac joined us in escape. she don't dare to take any rides la! i pulled her to join the queue for rainbow and grabbed her arm throughout so as to ensure that she won't have the chance of running away. lols. she tried to whine, wanting me to let her off. but how can jac make it for whining? tsk. well. she ended up beside me for the ride and was screaming non-stop lo. so funny la! in the afternoon, when we were on this ride, i'm busy finding the location of the airport control station with wl. he told me we can see the control station when we reached the top, so we're bz looking out for it. it's so funny!

at night, we went to new york new york to eat. recently don't know what's happening to me. my stomach always feel so empty. keep on eating and eating and i still don't feel anything inside. like tt very easily grows fatter leh. but i dun think i care. heehee.

sun was my son's birthday!
happy birthday son! you're FINALLY seventeen. must stay happy and lamee, yea? lols. love ya and take caree. your pressie is still with me. collect from me soon alright? if not i'll just keep it for myself and use it.((:

christmas coming!((:

"there's always 2 sides to life. it depends on which side do you want to see it" quoted this from what allena posted in the class blog. this is true. so i must always see life in a positive manner and be a happy little girl!

yest and today have been staying at my aunt's house. cut my hair today. it's so short and spiky la! yz sure laugh at me this friday de. i can predict. wellwell. what's done cannot be undone so just let it grows lo.

yest went out with kenneth to causeway cuz he wanna buy present for christmas den i just accompanied him since i'm free. after that we went to catch a movie-cinderella. watched halfway den realised it's a horror movie. lols. but the show is scary and quite nicee. if recently you wanna catch a movie and pondering over what show to watch, you can consider cinderella .

i'm still at my aunt's house now. thinking of whether to go home later or tml morning. sian ah. tml i got air rifle training again.

back from Hong Kong

helloos everyone. I'M BACK FROM HONG KONG! hahas.

reached singapore at 1225 and after all the delays and waiting, i finally reached home at this time and quickly do some blogging. tml when i free then i shall blog more. anw, i'm very tired now. going to sleep le la! oh ya! still need to bath. okayyokayy. going to bath now den sleep. better bath if not the toolpig yz going to say that i'm dirty again. everytime lie later his nose grows longer ah. lols. budden i bath this morning in hong kong already lehh. can i don't bath now? hee..((:

i'm leaving singapore for hong kong pretty soon. but i'm not excited at all leh. how come ah? i'm going oversea leh!!!!!!!! y i don't haf that mood? hmm.. gary daddy said that time before i went for obs, i also don't feel excited at all, but in the end also enjoyed the days so much, so now should be the same. hope it's like tt bah. hope when i'm on the plane, i'll feel the excitment already.

yesterday, went to work at mandarin again. then the function was SAJC grad night. partnered with yz. he's super duper funny de la. the whole night i'd been laughing non-stop. haha. i kept on don't allow him to pick up cuz his fingers are injured what. then i also don't wish that his fingers will bleed again, hope that they will recover soon, so just asked him to be a good boy and serve drinks. then there's once when this guy, from the table i supposed to serve, took photo with me. when i told yz bout it, he's like saying, "where's the knife? i wanna stab him!" lols. but no knives already since we'd already served the fishes, then he said, "nvm, still got hot tea. hot tea will do." rofl. got chance wanna partner with him again leh. funny guy. hee.

at night talked to kenneth on phone. talked until super late den my dad scolded me. sad. my dad dote on me alot so whenever he's angry with me, my heart will sink, i'll feel very sad. hope everything will be okayy between my dad and i soon. i love him so much.

wellwell. i going to sleep now already. if not later cannot wake up in time to go airport. take caree everyone and to my fans (lols. brb. heehee.), i'll be back on sunday night so most prob monday will blog again. yea? tc tc. i will miss all of you! ((:

just transferred some photos from my camera into the com. the first 4 photos were taken during our class SL at sentosa and at vivo. the last 4 photos were taken during our class chalet at costa sand and escape. the two girls on bed with me are my dears. hmm.. on bed, sounds a little wrong. tsk.. as you can see our main activity at chalet is BRIDGE. lols. even mr lim was also playing bridge with us. hahas. see the last photo? tt's my son, lincoln. haha. he looks so ugly in photo lo.

owells. let me blog bout what happened in this entire week. basically i'm just working, working, working, working and working. haha. sounds a little no life right? budden if i don't go work, i will just stay at home and rot. i know i won't do my hw anyway. ain't it more unproductive?

actually working is more FUN with pohlin, shawn, kenneth, yuan zheng, vincent, david and andy. they are a bunch of super duper funny people. david everytime bully me. den i will take revenge on shawn. rmb on thursday night when we took the same train home together, i laughed throughout the whole ride la! damn entertained by them. lols. on friday, i worked at the same place as most of them as well. and again, i'm super entertained, especially by yz. he's acting skill ah. damn zai. haha.

i love these jokes:
-so be it!
-the passing of my POSB card to each other using invisible force.
-pouring coffee and tea into the wrong kettles.
-huh? cannot exchange? i go talk to henry.

sat i went to NUH to visit my uncle. his stomach got some problem and his blood pressure is also quite low. actually he and his wife are supposed to go hk with us de. den now the doctor discourage him from flying so their flight were cancelled. hai. sad.

today i stayed at home the whole day to pack my luggage. sian leh. i dislike to pack stuff. very lazy ah.

anw, tml night i'm working again.

Your Birthdate: September 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality.Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure.Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

i'm sick!

wth. i've been laughing at people who are sick recently, saying that they are weak. yet now i'm sick. lols. retribution ah. tsk.

i woke up in the middle of the night with my stomach aching and my head being very heavy and giddy. initially, i thought it's nothing much so i just applied some oilment on my tummy. who knows later i got diarrhoea and vomited. while i'm walking to get some plums, patches of black spots started to cover my vision. i'm damn scared la! the last time i experienced this was some time ago already and i still can remember the fear i felt within. now, the same thing happened again. i quickly walked to my parents' room before i cannot see anything and woke my dad up. i felt so weak. in the end, not only my dad woke up, my mum and sis woke up as well. mummy got me some pills for diarrhoea and syrup (omg! i hate syrup! they just taste like shit! somemore you will definitely taste it before you swallow it! eee.. yucks! i rather eat shit also dun wanna drink such yucky thing!) anw, i'm feeling better now. in the morning my diarrhoea was so terrible that i went to the toilet for dunno how many times. even when i fart, the shit will come out. (this sounds unglam! so i shall not talk more bout it. lalala. heehee.)

oh yah! the best thing bout having diarrhoea is that I GOT THE WHOLE 1.5L OF H-TWO-O to drink! wahhaha! mummy said that's isotonic drink and since i lost so much water during the diarrhoea process, i should drink more of it. hee..

sian ah. actually supposed to attend a graduation ceremony de. my volunteery work but all thanks to this toolpig diarrhoea, i couldn't attend. somemore the toolpig jason (who's my mentee) laughed at me finally sick. the next time i see him, sure whack his butt! lols. forever so naughty.

in the afternoon, my whole family went out to travel agency there again to get our air tickets. wells, i dun wanna stay at home alone so i tagged along as well. did nth much outside la.

anw, i'm feeling much better now. thanks for those who care for me. love ya..((:

yesterday went to meritus mandarin to work again cuz wen cai called me and asked me to help to replace him so i just help lo. while working, i remembered so much so much stuff that once happened there before. really miss those days and those friends. i felt so back home! i'm so happy when some of the people there remembered me. especially the bar uncles, who always treat me as their god-daughter, and eddie, the manager. really really very touched. it's like i have not been working there for 9 months already, yet they can still remember me. hoho.

quite tired and my feet hurted at the end of the day.

owells. today i'm off from going out. have been going out rather often recently and i'll be going out the whole of next week to work. so today i've been watching vcd. watched two shows and that's my biggest achievement.

sian. i dun really have the motivation to do hw so i think i will only start doing after i return from hong kong. must always think that there's always a tomorrow. die ah. everytime i hafta do hw i will have this thinking. in the end, nth will be done. i felt like a pro! i can predict the further! haha.

just came back from chalet. we had quite alot of fun, i supposed.

day1:

went to yew tee with my son, my dad, and kenneth to help wm to carry all the chalet stuff. really alot of things. but since everyone carried something and shared the load, we were able to transport all the stuff to chalet. reached there in the evening and we started to bbq. i felt so proud of myself cuz i'm like one of the chef there. n i'm even happier when my friends said that the food tastes nicee. tsk.. budden i bbq damn longg till my eyes hurt and i'm forbided from bbq-ing further. zzz.

day2:

i'm jealous and sad!

in the morning, we didnt sleep. some people were upstairs talking crap and some were downstairs bridging and playing ps. as for me, i kinda had nth to do. so decided to walked outside. wm insisted on following me so i just let him follow lo. i think he knew that i'm not in the good mood and wanted to be alone so he only followed me behind. went back to chalet again and i'm so bored. i felt so left out. thanks to glenn. i guessed he knew that i need to leave the chalet a while and get some fresh air so he offered to accompany me to walk around that area. i really feel better after telling him all the unhappiness i felt within. sometimes i just need a listening ear.

went to play daytona in arcade. damn fun man. we made full use of the limited 6 driving machines. we played twice and i think that the second time when we played, it's more thrilling. cuz our aim was to bang the others. wahhahha. i enjoyed playing daytona and scolding vulgarity at the same time. but actually my vulgarity not that vulgar la! i insisted that i'm a good girl. lols.
went to escape after that. really had great fun with glenn, yhui, yhan, kr. omg! i'm so excited when i entered la! cuz can get some thrilling rides. i think that the rides in singapore are not very thrilling. i'm not very scared, perhaps it's because my dad has started training me from young to be able to take thrill rides. haha.

at night, the others all went for night cycling except for me, allena, charles, rq, ben and benson. allena's leg is injured so i just accompanied her to stay in chalet lo. we dozed off for 2 hours plus.

day3:

when she and i woke up, it's already 1 plus. remembered it's her birthday so immediately gave her my wishing. haha.

allena>> dear girl, the first thing you did on your birthday is spent on the bed with me! heehee!

no time to waste, both of us went downstairs and we started with our bridge session again. haha. so much fun! i love bridge! i can get damn high when i'm bridging. i got very excited easily especially when the others trusted me.


bout 4 plus or 5, when i went upstairs, the beds were occupied by the guys so were the blankets. i'm afraid that yvonne they all would be cold so i lent them my jacket. since everyone was asleep, i went to sit at one corner of the room and dozed off. in the end, i'm freezing till i buay ta han already, i went downstairs to continue sleeping. hai. if i knew that allena, my dad and son ain't sleeping, i suree won't sleep in the first place.

had breakfast at mac. drank hot tea to warm myself. we had cakes for allena and kr to celebrate their birthday. returned to chalet to pack our bags and off we left sand costa.

went to allena's house after tt. we watched a show, celebrated allena's birthday again and followed by online games. last but not least, the most important thing is that i had dinner there. i ate alot la! had chocolate cake, dinner and fruits! yummy yummy! anw, allena's brother damn act cute one la. haha. he's very funny ah. like another lincoln. lols.

tml my brother is going to receive his PSLE results. hope he can do well and at into a good school though it's rather difficult due to his laziness. i shall pray hard for him!

today went out to northpoint to teach agnes maths. hmm.. but the thing is that i don't seem to be of any help lehh. i kinda forget alot of things already. think my brain is rusty. zzz. felt quite bad when i couldn't solve some of the sums. rah!

after that, agnes, mun and me went to the night market nearby to walk walk and eat. i love night market!

keep on laughing at mun's jokes today. damn funny la! dunno since when she became so crappy. lols.

tml going to class chalet. will only return home on wednesday. wah! my schedule is like so packed! but bo pian. people who are popular kinda faced this problem de. eee. bhb.

that's all! take caree to all my friends out there. ((:

here are some photos taken when my little cousin came over to my house and on the day of my parents' wedding anniversary when we went out together for lunch at vienna.

yesterday had great fun! went to fort caning park for some family day event. tell you what. there were lots of good food there! so yummy! the first thing i did when i reached there was to eat. haha. cannot resist the temptation. lols. after eating, i went to play games and win prizes. won so many things la!

later my cousin, siblings and i went over to our mat to rest and watch movie. the best thing is that we could eat and watch movie at the same time. wah! shiok man! lols. i also went to play this jumpy thingy.

owells. i'm super tired when i reached home but still have to bath. zzz. snatched with my sis for the toilet so that i could be the first to bath. lol. cannot blame me for doing that. i must be the first to bath if not later i will not have the incentive to bath already. sleep soon after that.

what a happy day!((:

Life is like a sine graph,
no matter how far you fall,
it will reach a time that you hit the minimum point.
That's when the gradient will become positive,
and you'll see the silver linning.

quoted this from agnes' blog.
i guessed it's really true. in life, there are always ups and downs. so.. we shall be strong when we're down and there's always a turning point when everything will just turn out to be fine.

just came back from OBS and just bath. so shiok! the wind is blowing right now from outside the window and i suddenly start to miss those times again!

i cried today when going to leave ubin. i knew i will miss them, especially those people in hillary as well as those in junko. we had so much so much fun together and yet 5 days seemed to be so short and we had to part so soon. i'm not mentally prepared for it, i supposed. i know it's still possible to meet up someday, but the opportunity is so few! they are from PJ and MJ leh, living at the other end of singapore. it's really difficult to get together again. sob.

first day when i reached ubin for obs, i'm quite sian with my group members. perhaps it was because we were strangers so it's wasn't really possible to develop good feelings at first. we did trust fall and basic belaying. i think these activity really required lots of trust and support from each other. when i'm belaying redzuan, my feets ain't touching the ground at all when he's falling! it's jin kai who support me at the back. if not i would have flew up.

second day, i'm quite pissed when the guys did not wanna help to carry all the stuff, as everyone's bag for land ex is super heavy, so i volunteered to carry everything instead. thanks to redz and steven who helped me in the end. we did rock climbing as well as learning basic kayaking skills. i hafta say that these activities made me dare to challenge and work beyond my limits, especially rock climbing. we also kayak to this dunno whatever granite island to camp overnight with junko. wah! natural massaging! lols.

third day, we set off from the island, kayak round ubin and across it through the swamp to another campsite. this journey was really cool. i loved it. but the tough part was to carry the kayak across land. the first time i fell! then there are scratches here and there. but so many people cared for me. i'm super duper touched. so tt's not important anymore. the second time the toolpig mud made me so lao gui. but whatever it is la. dun care anymore. later when we kayak, it rains! omg! tt's even more cool. not only it washed our mud away, but also made the expedition more thrilling. heehee! the most scary part is that there was a swordfish in my kayak! omg! when i knew it, i almost jumped out of the kayak la! steven was there saying "lindy, cool down cool down". think he damn scared we capsized cuz i keep on leaning to my left. lol. but i'm afraid that the fish would poke my butt wad. haha.

oh yah! you noe wad? we learnt how to pee in the wild leh. pee into the sea. haha. i felt so exposed! lol.

the forth day, we went for land expedition. the bag was damn heavy la! there were a few times when i almost fell backward. but it's determination which allowed us to complete the entire route. all thanks to it. i got lots of blisters on my feet now. zzz. but tt's not really very important. the most important thing is that i managed to lead the others correctly in a game while everyone was blind-folded. i can't believe i can do it based on my memory and some reminder from alex. somemore i bet that if i dun get the right tree, i let everyone slap me twice. lol. lucky correct. when i reached our campsite, i felt so at home. after cooking, i ran to toilet to shit. 4 days package leh. haha. funny ah.

the last day, which is today, we went for jetty jump. nice experience. then we did all the clearing up stuff. it was very tiring. the worst thing was THERE WAS NO WATER SUPPLY! so we ended up having powder bath. after everything had been done, there was this sharing session. wad toolpig session la! all thanks to it. it made me start crying and it went non-stop. actually i'm seriously very sad. can't bear to part with the others. i hope someone could understand exactly how i'm feeling. sob sob.


i love ubin life, i love you guys. all of you will be missed, must miss me as well, alright?((:


junko rawks!

but hillary rawks even more!

"good try"- internal joke.

just finish packing my bag for obs later. i'm going to obs for 5 days! will be back only on friday. so those fans of lindy, dun miss me too much alright? wahhahhaa.. joking joking. lols.

anw, i have got alot of things to blog about. should start on what happened on friday. our class went to sentosa to get every SL thing settled so as to make sure sat's SL will go on smoothly. that day actually we did not do much on SL also. end up playing instead. wet weather programme-bridge cum hearts. lols. hmm.. n i'm rather moved by what others had done for me. i guessed some people are brought up to be caring and nicee and even born with high EQ. i hope i can be like them but i'm not. but at least i can feel it and i'm really touched deep inside. owells, i felt so fortunate, so loved that day. if every day can remain at those moments, how sweet it would be.

sat is the actual SL thing already. but guessed what? a heavy rain ruin everything. luckily the kids still can play all the different games at different stations. just that these stations were shifted to the same place-the interchange. quite sad for those kids cuz they didnt even get to touch the sand. hope they were happy den i believe everyone's effort will not go to waste. haha. even though it's raining heavily, there was this guy who is quite shuai sitting beside me in the tram. based on what he did throughout the whole journey, i can conclude that he's rather gentlemanly. yea.

today went to travel agency to book airline tickets and my family and i had confirmed in going to hong kong already. hoho. so happy. looks like my hols is quite occupied. i dun wanna do hw! lols.

owells, that's all folk. ((:

today is the day of OP. really very nervous. Q&A is killer man. lols. but owells. everything is over.

come to think bout it, i'm rather upset. last time every mon last period n every friday first period, there will be someone disturbing me, someone caring for me, someone making me laugh, someone making me do work. rmb there's once because of my promos i'm very stressed, very upset. first lesson is pw and i didnt talk at all. i feared that tears will just flow out. i think kenneth knew that i'm sad bah. he didnt disturb me at all. glenn, raktim and gary cared so much, especially glenn. they kept asking me what happened? this made me even more touched that i cried.

i dun think there will ever be such chance for us to be so close again. to joke and play cards under dim, romatic lights. to disturb and whack and shoot each other again.

lalalala.. end end..

yesterday morning went to skool to practice on our oral presentation and further improve on it to try to make our OP to become EE.

in the afternoon, i went to united square to meet my family, my aunt and my cousins to eat buffet. it's my parents' wedding anniversary! we took some photos after meal. shall upload the photos some days later when i'm free.
my aunt forced me to drink this glass of red wine la! she said it can help in blood circulation and so i should drink it. so i ended up pinching my nose and finish the whole glass. omg! it tastes so bitter, so yucky la!

back home and i slept. woke up, practice my OP in front of my dad and den went to bed again.

owells. i shall blog on what happened on tue. that day really felt very stressed, very terrible so my behaviour was kinda a little more weird than usual. i'm feeling rather bad now cuz that day i did released my anger on some of my friends. i know that you guys care. i really do. but i don't feel well inside that's why i don't seem to care. hope you guys can understand and forgive me.

hahas. i know you all are kind enough to overlook my mean-ness and forgive me. right right? lols.

that day we went to glenn's house to do pw again. but this time, with more people. everyone's there to play bridge and even hearts. hahas. funny la. gambling den.

in the late afternoon, when the others left glenn's place, left i and kenneth there. soon, gary came. supposed to start doing pw already yet i and kenneth were sleeping. kenneth slept on the floor between glenn's and cody's bed while i slept between cody's and nicol's bed. then the toolpig kenneth wanna occupied more space so he pushed cody's bed towards me. i'm like wth la! so i pushed back and stuff. after we stopped this kiddy behavoiur, when i started to doze off, the toolpig glenn threw his pillow at me! rah! this is not the end. when i going to doze off again, he threw his boster. this continues for his blanket and soft toys. wth la! angry! lols. the funniest part is when cody shouted "glenn! your gf cuz the telephone line to come out! very du lan lehh!" i so shocked la! omg! all thanks to the toolpig kenneth.

guess wad? in the end we only spent 30 mins on doing our project and the rest of the time, we played! play alternatively hearts and bridge. can train to switch mode quickly. hahas. gary is poor at it. so must train him more. the funny part is that kenneth is born to lose in hearts. he's a loser la! keep on losing. dunno y he so sway also. to him, play hearts=shoot the sai. thanks to him la! the entire night is filled with laughters. the idiotic glenn made me so angry for so many times that i bite him 2 times on his arm. heehee. who ask him to keep on trying to push the queen spade to me. orhbee. we ended up going home at 930pm. wad an early time! lols.

yest's my mood not really very good because i'm like kinda stressed so my behaviour tends to be a little more weird than usual. really feel quite bad now since i did release my temper on some of my friends. i know you guys care. i really do. just that i don't feel well inside and even felt like crying, i felt terrible, tt's y. i hope you guys can understand and forgive me. i'm sorry.

heehee. i know you guys will since you all are so kind and will overlook this matter. or maybe because i'm too adorable to be upset with. tsk.((:

thinking of it still feeling quite bad to be so unfriendly yest. really sorry leh my dearest friends! please tell me that i'm forgiven?

anw. yest we went to glenn's house again but this time with more people. everyone is there to play bridge! lols. gambling den ah. hahas.

wah. yest super tired. reached home watched the 10 o'clock show last episode then sleep already. just handed in the SL proposal thingy and now then blog.

went to glenn's house to do pw yest afternoon. wah! i love his house la! it's like a maze! i wish that my house can be like his. then i can run around the house everyday. omg! it will be so fun! can play catching. wahhahaha! at first when we just reached his house i almost bang into a mirror cuz i thought i can walked in there. then the toolpig glenn, gary and kenneth laughed at me. somemore later i saw 2 friges. then i thought this time for sure is mirror already. i tried to feel for the mirror then realised there's nth. who knows someone's house will have 2 friges ah! damn cool leh his house.

while we were doing pw, there's this joke. i said i will try to take the photo of a speed cam that is somewhere around my house. then they said later while i'm taking the speed cam, the speed cam take me. lols. so funny la! den later glenn said that later tml when i read the newspaper, headline written "crazy girl tries to take speed cam. fined $5000". what the.. lols.

glenn's brothers look so cute la! especially cody. haha. but so sad. now they got bad impression of me already. all thanks to glenn. idiot! rah! anw. i'm quite touched that someone would ever know what i like to drink. i'm quite surprised, but more to touched. hmm.. within this one year i don't think i ever said before i like to drink green tea, did i?

for stars, they have their own time. just like as people's world has it's own time as well.

just like how most of the planets have their own revolving cycles, humans, too, have their time of death. in 2,500 years, starting from now when 2,500 years pass by, all the things we are struggling now, we will struggle it again later. and we will meet the same people we met before.

here are some of the photos taken during our class outing to watch deathnote as well as an outing to sentosa.((:

today took my A lvl chinese exam. left a 4 marks mcq question blank la! wth! heart ache. rah! somemore the last 18 marks do not have enough time to complete. but well. what's done cannot be undone. i guessed i have learnt to take things less seriously now.

after chinese paper, i, agnes, allena, yvonne, jocelyn , yuanwen, yhui, wm, glenn and yhan went to centre point to eat pizza (not pizza hut!). lols. the service is like shit! but even though almost everyone thinks that the food tastes bad as well, i think it's rather nicee. perhaps i'm just too hungry. tsk.

thanks to cheryl. if not i will not be able to go out with the rest for lunch since there's a cca leaders meeting and i hafta attend as well. luckily cheryl went on my behalf and so i can be free from it. when she told me that it's okayy, she will just go and i can don't go, i''m SO SO HAPPY! LOVE HER SO MUCH MAN! it is only when she's around that i can escape from all these kinda meetings. thanks girl.

after meal, agnes went off for hockey training; yvonne, jocelyn and yuanwen went for oversea CIP meeting; yhui and glenn went home. left i, allena, wm and yhan who went walking along orchard road. i love to walk aimlessly sometimes. just walking around and talking and laughing. it really feels good! yhan left shortly for a wedding dinner at night and the remaining 3 of us were still walking and crapping until 5 den we decided to leave for home.

i saw this pale yellow and white strips shirt at heeren. fall in love with it. but i guessed i shouldn't waste more money, even though it's only 8 bucks (8 bucks only lehh), in buying new clothes since my wardrobe is already flooded and my mum is nagging me over it. sadd.. i really like it! really.

i hate to be in the rain. but i chose to walk in the rain today. actually i'm rather upset.

i dislike it when:
1) people find plenty of excuses just to reject me.
you wanna reject me just simply say so. finding some kuku excuses for me is kinda wasting my time listening to you. simply say a "no" and i'll understand everything.
2) someone gives me hope and destroy it within a few seconds later. the feeling sucks!
3) people pity me. i don't like the feeling of being inferior (but i do appreciate you sparing a thought for me).

sigh`

A level chinese and OP is just around the corner and i'm not prepared for it at all!

owells. i think i'm addicted to bridge. i wanna play i wanna play! shall go skool earlier just to play tt. lols.

yest damn tired so didnt blog. fall straight to sleep after i reached home. hahas. i'm totally exhausted after whole day of fun at sentosa.

actually we are supposed to go sentosa for SL thingy one but end up playing more than anything else. first time saw so many people vs so many people playing vball. hahas. and the toolpig jar. said tt he's a newby but he played to well la!

many of our class people got dunked today. haha. and tt includes me. they bullied me! i grabbed so tightly on to so many electronic things yet they can snatched everything away from me. i know that they are many people carrying me, but i can onli see yhui, yvonne and jocelyn. and there's this idiot that said i'm heavy. wth. better dun let me find out who are you or you are dead! rah! hahas. keep on shouting "there're still other 3 girls you all have not dunked, dun dunk me!" but they heck me. so i shouted "i got SD card in my pocket!" but in the end they still threw me in. the most funny thing is that i stumbled over my words. the word "SD" keep on got stucked. haha. lols.

i'm so proud of 10/06 swimming club. we swam together from one side of the coast to the other and then climbed up the rock to take a photo. but the rocks are so slippery and so sharp. it cuts my leg and it bleeds. luckily only a small cut only.then we swam back again.

it's going to rain soon so we quickily took a class photo with the aid of mx's frien. he's very funny la. rmb him saying "gan ni na no flash one". lols. think he keep on take the photo until he's irriated cuz no flash. after tt, we packed our stuff and hurried to bath. the toolpig queue was so damn long and those people before us were taking their own sweet time to bath. wth. super angry. it's so cool to share bathing stuff together. and some guys in our class waited for us. think they're so kind cuz i think we took like hour plus inside.

after tt we left sentosa and went to vivo to have dinner. walked around with agnes and we cannot decide on wad food to eat cuz all the food are so ex! saw allena buying indian food and jokingly scolded her cuz the day before yest i and her just ate tt only. in the end, i bought the same food as her. den she said me back. haha. then later we went into cande empire. omg! tt place is paradise! i love it! so much candy, chocolate, cookies. wah! heaven! i hope i own the shop! went to giant and i bought ginger ale. rmb the first time i drank tt was in mandarin. it tastes nicee. and fyi, it's not a beer though it looks likes. i dislike the taste of alcohol so it cant be beer, right?

walked to interchange with allena and agnes. it's really dark but the beautiful sparking cable cars made everything in the dark seem so nice. waited quite long for the toolpig 855. dunno y the vball rolled off into the drain and became dirty. wiped it and carried it onto the bus. dozed off in the bus. real exhausted!

reached home tt time i'm like yay-i'm-finally-home! of course i dozed off not long after tt. tt's y now den blog.

the most painful thing is that i'm burnt!

i love 10/06! i mean it! there're so much so much fun whenever i'm with them!

i just woke up from my nap. guess everyone has slept by the time i wake up. recently i have been sleeping alot and sleeping at the wrong time. tt's bad.

today went for NE excursion. went to hindu temple, muslim temple, URA and buddhist temple. wah! got to know alot about other religions stuff. rather interesting actually. realised that agnes know quite alot of things i dunno. i'm impressed.

after skool went to watch the movie deathnote with allena, yhui, wm, gary, yhan and kenneth. wah. the show is damn nice la. i'm going to watch deathnote2! dun care! heehee. oh ya! i'm going to watch the grudge 2 as well. so scary! i love it! lols.

tml going to sentosa. hope it will be a fun day.

no matter how i try preventing, there're always somethings that i have regretted..

am i really petty? i'm not! toolpig kenneth and lincoln. stop saying tt i am la! i think anyone in my stand will do the same thing (owells. actually i'm just finding some kuku excuse for myself. whatever la!).

this afternoon went for lunch at northpoint with allena, glenn, yhui and wm. everyone was like talking crap.
and most importantly, the indian food is so NICE! everytime passed by the stall i will not buy from them cuz the queue is always very longg. but today shared it with allena. hmm. rather tasty. heehee. next time buy from them again. must make suree agnes not there if not she will stop me from buying unhealthy food again. lols. tsk..

tml got NE stuff. dunno wth is that. nvm la. no lesson is the best! after skool we are having a class outing to j8 for lunch and movie deathnote. heard tt it's a very nice show. must watch! but sad la. agnes will not be going cuz i heard from her tt she got hockey training tml. dunno will allena be going not. i dun wanna be alone.

bedtime.

are our friendship bond really that weak that we cannot afford to undergo any minor setback? it's really sad. really disappointing.

and there's always some hypocrite in this world. i really feel very uncomfortable with these kinda people around. they can make almost everyone likes them la. i dunno how they did it. i hafta admit defeated. even i hafta act as if i like them as well so tt i will not be an outcast, so that i don't oppose the others who like them. i'm suffocating. i wanna cry. i wanna beg these people to stripe off their masks and just go away.

sometimes i really admire agnes. she can be so direct. she can just heck care everything and speak out. i can't. or perhaps i'm afraid. i'm just a loser. shit! sigh`

sometimes. a small thing alone can make me smile((:

this morning went to gym with agnes. tried a few new machines. quite cool la! there's this machine tt was damn lousy. cannot be lifted at all. i concluded tt it's spoilt. hahas. my greatest achievement in today's gym session is to perservere till time's up. it's really tough to endure i hafta say. but determination and friend's encouagement are very important as well. push agnes to perservere and she push me towards completing my sit ups. tsk. my tummy is very painful!

after tt when we went to eat lunch with mx, they restrict me to eat all kinds of food. wah! it's like a torture for me! end up eating duck noodles. i supposed it's healthy? after the meal, we lagged around for quite some time cuz it's raining and talked about all kinda stuff. quite random actually.

in the late afternoon went down to bishan to teach ethan, jonathan and gabriel physics. i'm really bad in teaching la! i cannot even stand it myself. sigh` wad a bad and lousy friend. actually i quite worried for them. their o lvl is like next week? or around there yet they are like who-give-a-damn-about-o-lvl like tt. they dun seem to realised tt it's O-LEVEL! tot is wad small test ah? HELLOS HELLOS, IT'S O LEVER LEH!! O-LEVEL!! and the toolpig jonathan. still keep on laughing at my english. i know my english ain't good la! i got C5 leh. but can't help it wad. it's just lousy! rah! must make him feel guilty.

owells. i hafta do my superposition now. haven do yet. lalallalalallaala..

wah siao. until now still haven do i&r. but nvm la. i guessed alot ppl also haven do yet where my alot are onli lincoln and yvonne. heehee. bo bian. how to do when i slept from yest evening to this morning and went shopping the shole day today?

yest actually onli suppose to take a nap. in the end slept until this morning den woke up. i estimated tt i lost conscious for bout 16 hours or moree. i'm like omg la! sleep so long. i seriously cannot believe it. no wonder i dreamt of so much so much thing.

today went out to toa payoh for breakfast for fortunate restarant. queue damn long la. actually should have expected it. today is public holidays wad. den after that went shopping. shop, eat, rest, shop, eat, rest, shop, eat, rest.. den reached home only at 11 plus. super tiring. and my legs.. very painful. but nvm. i bought new clothes again. my wardrobe super cramped now. only in no out. no wonder my mum keep on scolding me.


hais. some of my friends confirm retaining already. actually i cannot do anything but to persuade them to stay back. sound rather mean and bad right? your friends yet you are encouaging them to retain and not to promote. but tt's in their best interest i hafta say. owells. one of my friend even thought of quitting skool. i have already tried my very best to persuade him to stay in AJ. i hope he will.

and friday is seriously a bad day for me. i think i can finally understand how my aunt and my mum felt during an incident when i'm 12. i think i can finally understand how it felt when...
hais. it hurts my heart once again. thinking of the scenerio, thinking of my dunno-how-to-react reaction, thinking of those words that are spoken, it pierces through my heart. it's painful i hafta say. `sigh.

i felt that i'm losing more and more each day.
but there's not much i can do.
but to sit there and watch helplessly,
it fading away...

haha. just finish my Goong episode 12. dunno where yvonne watched until already. it has been 3 days since i last watch the show la! has been busy with project work stuff. think it's the same for yvonne as well bah. today handed in wr already so has one less thing to trouble bout and i'm slightly more free to watch princess hours. YAY! (jump jump jump jump..)

today after skool super funny la. dunno y i n allena so high. glenn was at the bus stop opposite of me, allena, yhui and kr. den we suggested to take turn to wave "byebye" to glenn so that he will have to keep on waving while each of us only need to wave 1/4 the time of glenn. haha. so funny la. glenn kept on waving and waving and waving and we kept on laughing and laughing and laughing. lols. super funny la! after yhui and allena board their bus, i and kr still there kept on taking turn to wave. haha. omg! everyone's so toolpig.

guess wad? in the end when glenn left already and i cooled down from laughing, i realised that i left my water bottle in skool la. lols. even more funny. now my bottle is in my locker. agnes helped me put it in. dunno how my bottle living in that small room. should be lonely without my accompany bah. hahas. i miss you too. nvm. tml we shall meet in skool again. heehee.

owells. there's this part of the day that i felt seriously offended. i told lincoln and allena bout it and they were shocked as well. omg! i dunno y. but i have already started to avoid this person subconsciously. i simply to dun like..(there's something that i realised i'm scared of. but i dunno since when i've this phobia.)

i finally understand why sometimes people use vulgarity already.
that's because there is no other english words that can be used to vent their anger.
rather unhappy.

now still doing written report. last bit of it. we must try our best to get EE. left me, gary and kenneth doing. the rest went to sleep already.

just now went to celebrate pilly's birthday. hk, th, yee, mun, yy, sean, zhengyang, xingyue and of cuz pilly went as well. owells, had quite a great time. especially when it has been a long time since we last met each other. but i'd got nth to talk to mun bout. dun even bother to even look at her. i cant believe she's tt unreasonable. early in the morning almost late for skool just because of msging her. or rather quarrelling with her through sms. not really in the mood bout saying this thing. anw, thanks to those who care to listen to my problem like lincoln, glenn and pilly. unlike some ppl who keep on shielding mun. zzzZZz..

lallalalalaa.

talk bout wad happened in skool is more interesting. our class had great fun today la! cuz almost like no lesson like tt. left to do wr and everyone's like keep on playing computer games. hahas. i'm one of them too! lols. anw. in the morning during maths lecture i fell from my chair la. den allena screamed and everyone turns back! omg! so lau gui la! embarrassed. lols. agnes didnt come to skool today. she fainted la! so serious. when i talk to her online just now. lucky la. she's feeling better.

finally finish written report already. yay!((:

wah lao. on mon actually i typed a long entry one la. who knows when i polish the post den the entry den proof! vanish! dunno is the internet got problem or wad. so angry.

anw, on monday we got back 3 of our papers. physics, maths and gp. maths is really a diappointment. such a let down. i got "D" lehh. well. actually i also can kinda expect it already. i did the paper, i know how well i fair myself. but i just hope that there might still be a chance that i can score well. "D" is too far from my aim. owells. let's not talk bout this anymore. and guess what? i failed my gp. really veri upset. many pple pass gp leh. yet i fail. think i just hafta admit tt my english is lousy. it's always the case. hmm. lucky my physics is not tt bad afterall.

tt day also very stressed. quite angry with gary i hafta say. he totally heck care bout the oral presentation and i hafta do all since it's planned long ago tt i am to lead in OP. i do not have leadership quality and it's really stressful for me to be there to lead in OP. it's really tough. furthermore, gary is like dun give a damn bout it la! sigh~ feel like just giving up and heck care bout it too. although i dun wish to but i hafta admit tt guys haf higher AQ den girls. called glenn and well, the problem is kinda solved.

as for yesterday, we got back the rest of the results. i passed all, except gp. for a "B" for chemistry, just pass for econs and "B" for chinese. siau lao shi gave me 10 marks lesser for oral and listening. she recorded the marks wrongly so in the end i got "B" instead of "C". when i knew it i nthe audi, i'm so happy tt i kept jumping there. haha. so funny. some teachers and students are looking at me but who cares, i'm just very happy. lols.

so............. i'm able to be promoted!

really felt sad for raktim. i dun wish tt he will go back to india. and sad for wm and jar. classmates for so long alreadyy. i really dun wish tt anyone will leave our class. isn't it mentioned before that 10/06 will forever be together. will promote together and stuff. damn sad when i can do nothing for them. so i ran to toilet to cry. i'm really veri upset. really very sad. )):
till now still unsure whether they can be promoted anot. i really hope that they can be promoted.

during oral presentation in the afternoon. i'm super duper nervous. somemore my group was the first to present. wah. siao liao. think the two coaches also noe tt i'm scared. can see bah. when asking questions during the Q&A part, they told me that don't worry, it will be a simple one. lols. lucky i managed to survive through the presentation as well as the Q&A. Q&A really veri scary i hafta say. gary said that coach shaun and coach brandon are veri cocky. but i think that they are very friendly and nicee. they are very attractive as well. even allena said so. hahas. lookinf forward to the next meeting with coach shaun.

today went out to do pw in the afternoon at amk library with gary and glenn. not bad. i did quite alot of work so feel veri happy. they two made me the leader la! den i hafta lead. this stressed me lo. how would i ever noe how to lead? so scary..

after tt, i went to northpoint with mun for dinner together. reali long didnt get to see her and catch up with her already. after eating, we went shopping in northpoint as well. had a great time!

reached home alreadyy hafta do my pw again. and then.. i watched Goong AGAIN! finished episode 11.

yest our skool got open house. my toolpig air rifle friends sabotaged me to wear the air rifle suit and walk around to publicise. the suit trapped heat like crazy la! so hot and stuffy. and so stiff tt i cannot walk up and down step. big bullies! the toolpig ah biao ate my kfc potato somemore while i'm in the mass dance. but forgave him since he's hungry and he admitted eating it.

oh ya. the mass dance. it so fun! haha. i'm damn high la! i dunno y. lol. i'm eating the bandito pockett while dancing at the same time. hee. cuz i'm eating halfway den my friends wanna go dance so i went dacing with my food lo. wahahhahahha!

after open house, went down to cdac straight. jason was as playful as ever la! but i realised something. he's smart actually. when he settled down, he can listen to me for quite sometime to teach him several sums. and he understands. when we're on our way home, he asked me for my hp no. and email. yesterday den i know tt actually jason got some family problem. but well, tt's isnt reali impt to me. the impt thing is tt i am able to help him and befriend him.((:

Goong Princess Hours

hmm. just finish watching Goong episode 10 on you tube. felt so contented. ((:

today left skool early for dental appointment. lucky i got brush my teeth regularly. not too bad. my teeth are in healthy condition. only need to do some cleaning up tt's all. heehee.

tml is our school open house. owells. nth much la actually. after tt will be going down to cdac for tutoring again.

just finish half of episode 8. think cannot watch alreadyy. it's getting latee. my parents think tt i'm too addicted to the show so keep on saying me.

owells. i began to grow to like shin. but never will he be able to replace yui.

omg! wad's my blog becoming like. reflection of the show "goong princess hours"? lols. hmm.

today late for chem spa. den in the end told to stayed back by mr ng. he asked me, allena and agnes to wait for him den hafta give him explanation of why we are late, what happen if we are late again. den asked us to write everything on a piece of paper la! still hafta file tt into the dunno wad pupil personal file or something like tt de thing. zzz~
next tue getting back all promo papers. super scare lehh. i hope i can be promoted.

yest saw mr lim. today also saw him. everything see him he will say," lindy ah. vomit blood leh".
i noe he's disappointed in me. all i can do is to apologise to him. i really feel very bad whenever i see his disappointed face. sigh~ this time really let him down.

owells. yest we got festival of life. i enjoyed the wire sculpture session la! it's so fun! but the only thing is tt my fingers hurt. somemore after tt i got air rifle training.

this entry may be a little messy. haha. but what to do. i'm rushing to sleep before my dad comes out of his room to scold me.

tml shall continue to watch "Goong".. tsk..((:

just finish watching goong princess hours episode 4 on youtube. OMG! kim jung hoon aka YuI's so SHUAI!! i hope i can dream of him tonight man. haha. i'm too crazy over him le la! but he's simply too SHUAI to resist alreadyy. lol.

still feel like watching lehh. i wanna watch finish everything by tonight! i hope in the end, chae gyung and yui can be together. but i think it's quite impossible cuz the toolpig shin is the main character wad. but anw, shin isnt really tt bad looking la. the moree i see him, the moree i think he isnt tt ugly afterall. but I STILL LOVE YUI! lalallaa... tsk..

owells. hafta thank yvonne for teaching me how to watch goong from youtube. so happy. then huilin going to lend me her vcd at around the end of this month. yay! can watch again! this time without all those toolpig hanging parts.

in the afternoon went causeway point with my mum and aunt to watch "rob b hood". OMG! the show is damn nicee. and the baby is SOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEE!! i love the show man. when the vcd is out i will suree buy it de! den i can watch over and over and over again. ((:

today did almost nth again. stayed at home to watch tv.

OMG! PRINCESS HOURS IS SO NICEEEEEE!!! so sad i dun haf dvd player. if not i can borrow the whole series from yee alreadyy. sob sob. i love kimjung hoon! he's so shuai! i love him! he's mine. lols. the toolpig yee keep on claiming tt he's hers. hahas.

and Yoon Eun Hye. she's so cute! omg!

today nth much happened. just stayed at home the whole day and watched tv. just now 9 pm the horror show on channel U was SO NICEE! the impt thing was tt twins acted in it as well. actually the show not reali veri scary la. only some parts quite shocking. den other parts quite funny. keep on screaming and laughing until my mum scared disturbed neighbours den quickly closed the door. hahas. owells. tt's all. night..((:

today i'm so happy!((:

in the afternoon received allena's msg asking me whether i wanna go for lunch with her and the other girls not; at the same time whether i wanna go to chong pang there de tuition centre for volunteery work to teach those cdac students not. at first i'm very lazy la. dun really feel like going even though i dun haf any program today and i know i will just rot at home. but after some persuading by allena, i finally decided to just go and see.

already said to meet at 2. after talking to allena, bout 1 plus already. i laid on my sofa and told my sis to wake me up at 145 before i dozed off. in the end, when i woke up, i looked at the clock. IT'S 2!! omg! I'M LATE! quickly changed and dashed out of my house. my mum cycled me there. lucky the coordinator haven start his briefing yet. phew~

after briefing, we marked those primary skool kids' practice papers and hafta teach them. one-to-one lehh. my tt kid horr. super super naughty! i hafta play sissor-paper-stone wif him den can teach him lo. he said i win 3 times den i can teach him. if he wins 3 times den he will teach me. in the end i won he also keep on dun listen to me talk. angry. i said jokingly ,"you so bad de. bully me. i wanna cry already." den he just laugh laugh laugh, go tell his friend tt i wanna cry le. LOLS! so NAUGHTY. but CUTE la!

before we went for games, he promised me tt he will go home and attempt the rest of the questions den next week show me. wonder will he really do tt not. at most if he don't den i dun give him sweet eat alreadyy.

he really veri cute la! play games tt time when the coordinator asked for 4 mentors to join in captain ball tt time, he quickly asked me to come in to play. so adorable. lols. had so much so much fun. i guessed it's not only me who enjoyed bah. everyone do. can see from those smilesss on agnes, allena, yvonne, yuanwen, jocelyn, the other two aj girls and all the kids!

when going off, i asked him for his no. den guess wad? he keyed in 10 digits. what the. lols. next time see him must whack his butt alreadyy.

oh ya! he's name is jason! and he bluff mi his name is jackson until halfway through den i realised actually is jason. naughty little boy. took photo wif him using my phone. haha. got his photo in my phone now.

``felt a little bad. i can spend time for volunteery work to teach others yet i cannot do tt for my siblings. especially my brother. y ah? i dun understand this myself as well. perhaps i should try to teach him again tml. i seriously wish tt he can get into a good school de express stream. he's studies is really bad. really really very bad.

after tt went to northpoint to dine with my family. my siblings went to arcade to play while i went shopping with my mum. bought alot of things. so contented. lols.
saw yee and her sis. singapore is really small. when we went out of the shop, guess who we met? mr white and his family! singapore is really reallly small. i quickly pulled yee to take photo with me and mr white's daughter. she's so lovely!

owells. think tt's bout all tt happen today. so much to write bout...((:

today is the last day for promos. after taking my chinese paper, our class got gathering. but i didnt go for it as i alreadyy have a hot date wif my family. so i went home and wait for dad and sis to come home. my bro went to his friend's house to play and so he didn't go yam cha with us at toa payah. i paid the bill lehh. veryy sweet right? cuz my parents really did alot for me during my promos. they keep encouraging and did many other stuff so when i finish my promos, i think it's necessary for me to repay them.

after eating went shopping. i bought a new short! yay! so happy!

really quite tired now.

oh ya. today is lantern festival. HAPPY MOONCAKE DAY TO ALL! ((:

i've got 3 days of hols lehh. monday is a school-free day for me! wahahhahah~ today den realised monday don't hafta go to skool! OMG! SO HAPPY! HEEEHEEEHEEE~

i miss mun and yee. so longg didnt see you girls alreadyy. rmb our steamboat hot date to a steamboat meal? i still waiting for someone to offer to treat me.. haha..

just realised i missed the fun our class had just now. but owells. so long everyone happy can liao. haha. enjoy your 3 off-days, allena and agnes. takee careee..

sept photos

some recent photos. dunno consider recent not la. it's taken in sept..((:

wah. it's has been quite some time since i last used the com. hmm. not reali busy studying for promos, but i think it's moree to no mood to do so bah. den today online realised i have got 108 UNREAD EMAILS! take quite some time to finish reading all. lols.

promos going to end soon. tml i will be taking the last paper-chinese. nth much i can do today since the syllabus has changed and now we do not hafta study all the hanyupinyin alreadyy.

did really badly for maths yest. i'm super sad la. i left like 50 plus plus marks blank. my maths all along very good de and it's my favourite subject, my strength. if i don't score for maths i dunno wad other subj i can score. i've never fail maths before la. and i'm aiming for an "A" in maths this time round again. but.. sigh~ really veri sad. i felt so disappointed in myself. felt tt i've been such a let down to my maths teacher and my parents. the day before, my maths teacher still told me to jiayou for this his paper. but i've been such a let down. think he will be very disappointed when he see my result. dun dare to face him. i hope he don't mark my paper. sorry mr lim. but anw, thanks to all those who msg me and tried to cheer me up. even though i'm really down down and don't feel like saying a thing, you guys are still there for me. it's really veri sweet.

gp and econs i think gone case alreadyy la. econs i studied the whole of first chapter and only scan through some parts of the behind chapters. guess wad? the first chapter not tested at all la! rah! lucky glenn did some summary for me, for those i've not touched on, before entering into the examination hall. got some related questions came out. but i dun think i can score still.
my mum brought me to the nearby park to study econs on mon night. so funny la.



hopefully i can pass my promos. i dun wish be push up by my teachers. i will feel inferior if i'm promoted in tt way.

pray hard that will pass. buddha bless. god bless.

today's sat alreadyy. monday starts promos. but guess wad? i'm still online blogging and playing games. shit! what's going on in me ah? hahas. still can laugh somemore. i like seriously don't give a damn bout studying anymoreee. lallalalala.. anw. good luck to everyone taking their papers on this coming week. take caree..

like what yee always say," god bless, buddha bless and i bless."

)):jialat.

today jar pon skool. should have told me wad. is like so unproductive in skool la. dunno y go also. but for the sake of not having a make-up pe, i think i better go. but i went alreadyy wad, so y for say so much ah? i also dunno..

next mon promos alreadyy. i dun seem to caree alot like tt. think i just aim to pass my 3 H2 subjects and chinese. and tt's it! flung my gp and econs i dun caree. so longg can promo can liao. promote already den slowly handle these subjects. wonder will i not? or will i start playing den n totally forget bout it?

actually i dun reali understand wad am i blogging bout. just keep typing and typing and typing. my eyes are tired again. think i'm going to sleep now. wake up le can absorb den study lo.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY TO COME!! RAHRAHRAH..

now in skool library. think if i don't come here i will never get my entry done. dunno y everyday so tired. till now what i have studied is like almost equals to nth. and the most crucial thing is that my promos is in two weeks time! gosh!

everyone in my class like all alreadyy get into the momentum of studying alreadyy. yet i'm still stuck right here! really hope tt the two weeks can come slower but the three weeks can come faster. three more weeks. just three moree weeks and my promo will be over!

sunday went to celebrate my granny's birthday. can see that she's extremely happy. i think in one year i onlyy get to this kinda gathering with my relatives for like twice or thrice. no much chance, so do my granny. i'm closer to my relatives on my mum's side than my dad's side.

hais. get back to promos. i think i really no hopee alreadyy. but i really hafta thank my dad, mum, granny, aunt, my teacher and even my friends for encouaging me continuously. really touched. but i seriously hope somewhere within me i can get my motivation back and START TO STUDY! sigh..)):

i recently quite moody. i've been quite worried over my promos but i just find noone to rely on. to cry upon.

i have no motivation to do any studying. just like now. wad happened to me? hai..)):

received the present from mun n yee yest afternoon (since now alreadyy past 12). it's really beautiful and i love it alot! i mean it! it's a box with lots of decoration within. when i opened the box, i'm like WAOH!
think lots of effort has been put in but they did it the present after my birthday. angry. lols. n how do i noe? because in yee' msg to me, she wrote something bout "snakes on the plane" and i only decided to watch tt movie on my birthday itself. how blur can she be? lucky there's always she to make me seem smart and alert! hahas.

thanks mun and yee. love you two alot! you two must jiayouu for promos okayys?((:

i'm super stressed over the promos. another 3 weeks left. countdowning to it..
super scared bout gp la! it is dunno how many months since i last touch newspaper. think going to fail my compo. somemore tt time the compre hw i got all wrong! going to fail my compre as well. shit! I'M REALLY VERY FRUSTRATED! rah!

you have left and there's noone there for me to rely on when i'm stressed again. i don't know i can endure how long moree. i'm afraid that i will just fall apart.
i've alreadyy learn to be as independent as possible but...

actually yest supposed to go out with my god bro. he wanted to celebrate my birthday with me. but in the end he very bz. cannot make it. reali veri sad over it lo. think we one year can only meet like twice? one on his birthday, one on mine. sigh~)):

in the afternoon met mun to go to cc cafe to study. wanna go out earlier to do hw on my own first de lo. who knows when i locked the door gate tt time, i heard something pangs, breaks. opened the door, came into the house and i saw the broken whitening lotion bottle on the floor. obviously my mum won't help me to clear up the mess cuz tt's my stuff. so i hafta do it myself. while picking up the broken glasses, i cut my finger la! how toolpig. i tot tt's only lotion wad. so used my finger to wipe it. who knows it's glass! anw, it's only a small cut so i think it will recover very soon. after clearing up all the broken pieces, I'M LATE to meet mun! zzz..

rushed down to cafe and we stayed up till dinner time, had dinner at her house, and continue to do hw at blk 825. i dunno am i inefficient or toolpig. stayed out for so longg and i only completed 3 questions. really veri irritated.

haven even finish hw how to start my revision for promos? start to feel a little stressed. i'm scared i cannot promote. my english standard is like SHIT! and the last time i read newspaper was like dunno how many months ago. die die! STOP STRESSING ME!

later meeting mun and yee. they are going to pass me my present. i still have no idea wad issit. the toolpig mun was there keep on saying how wonderful is the present.
i wonder...
lols.

family steamboat birthday celebration

today went to skool for physics lecture and tutorial. super sian la! especially tutorial. delay till so late lo. actually supposed to end at 2 but 3 alreadyy, ms siti was still there going through so i went off early. quickly took an afternoon nap when i reached home because i'm really very tiredd.

in the evening, my family and i went down to marina bay to eat steamboat as planned. this meal was actually mend to celebrate my birthday. but it's so belated because my dad was bz with his work so hafta accommodate with his time lo.
we had lots of fun there. talk alot. crap alot. eat alot. drink alot. laugh alot.
oh ya. oil also alot. it just splattered in all directions and burn my fingers. so angry la! my bro and dad cooked nth happened den when i cooked the oil just flew up and kissed my finger. so biased! toolpig oil.. bullied me only!

I LOVE MY FAMILY!!
MY FAMILY LOVES ME!!
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